Bad Days Made Better…sometimes..

 What a wacky week I have had. Good and bad all balled up into one messed up package! Me just going through the daily grind of existing. The beauty of nature abounds in the form of blurs of snow. My biggest fear being road ice. Thank goodness for rugged trucks and four wheel drive. I try not to make myself too bothersome for those around me as not to bring them down. My friends and those close to me, well they all have been wonderful. I know people have worse situations than mine. I just feel bluesy. But for me to feel that way is a rather drastic event in my more than chipper lifestyle.

 Days go by and I think and feel that this blah feeling will work itself out. I know it will, it just takes time and a whole lot of not thinking too badly. I know that if I dwell the sadness enters and who knows how long it will stay? This is supposed to be the season of wonderful holiday memories. So far I have had a roller coaster of emotions. The word that I identify with the most is content. Content is a pretty bland word. It will do for now. It just will have to.

 I breathe and sigh and let out a little chirp just wishing that I could end my days with a hug. I am not going to beg for affection though as I am not that desperate. I enjoy the time I have with the people who truly care about me. I need not explain anything and they do not mind if I ramble on a little. They, being the wonderful people they are, know me well enough to just let me vent and have peace. I love them all for this one comfort it gives me.

 I drive in my truck sometimes wishing that I was not so alone on my travels. I do not mind it so much because it does give me time to think and reflect. Something as small as holding hands, a kiss on the check, or a great big hug would be the highlight of my day. These are wishes that, if came true, would be wonderful surprises to cherish and slumber upon restfully. I have to imagine something to keep from rolling in tears.