Finding an Outlet in Writing

I have been reading and writing since I figured out the process of both. I think that having been able to do this has made life a little easier. I can read when I cant do anything else and write when I need to let it all out. I have learned that having a temper and letting it out where ever and when ever I wanted was only going to make me get fired and lose friends. I couldn’t afford to lose my job and I hated the thought of losing friends. So, I bought a really cool looking journal and went to town.

I have always liked writing. Not just for the simple fact that I didn’t lose my job, but also because it is creatively me. No matter what I wrote, no matter were I was it was all me. I didn’t have to let anybody read it and nobody could say anything about my handwriting, spelling (I love spell check), or my thoughts. They were mine and hidden in my private little book. I could get the thoughts out of my head without being judged. I could yell (in writing) about anything any time and not have any one yell back. The best part about it was after I wrote it out I lost the want to yell. I wasn’t mad any more. I wasn’t sad any more.

Writing made it so that I could get my thoughts and emotion out all at the same time. I have kept the journal thing going for years. Not only have I used it to keep my secrets I have also kept it so that I don’t yell at my son. He is very high energy and at the age for four, wants to push my buttons. So, I handle the frustration by writing and I doing so me and my son are a lot happier. I am sure that it makes my husband a lot happier too. When he makes me upset or mad, I turn to my journal and write it all out. That way I can see my feeling and work it all out so that I don’t get into a fight that I don’t need to have. There are times that I am so excited that I cant contain myself. There are times though that I have no one to celebrate with. Here again I can freak out in my journal and get all of that emotion out so that my son doesn’t think that I have gone crazy.