Selfless Paulete

Two years ago, my husband was involved in a terrible accident. Due to severe injures on the brain he lost his potency. We were in our lovely peak when this happened. With constant pain and disorders he finally dead. It very devastating when this happened. I wasn’t prepared to find myself in a dark world considering my age of 44 and childless. Who will I be with without my ability to have kids?

All I wanted in my entire life is to have a man who love me for who I am and a sizeable family. Not having these basics meant I have nobody to talk to and share ideas and nobody to play with. I was not whole without my long hoped vision of these.

My near relatives were a trauma to me. I couldn’t walk out of my house with a little pride but I was determining to put my vision and my self esteem back on track. My church members were supportive. Colleagues in the church adjusted their own lives in order to keep my spirit up. They helped me by making my life busy so as to forget the past although it was though. At 46 I did not want to leave an impression that everything is lost. I relied on my faith and believe that life must flow no matter what happen.

When a pool of anything stops flowing, it becomes stagnant. Stagnant water breeds disease and death. It can’t be breathed. It can’t receive any more. If nothing is flowing out, there’s no room for anything else to come in.

When bad thought clouds my mind  I start thinking as if the world is going without me. Believing that I can overcome the obstacle was critical. Fortunately the lord stepped in by introducing me to a wonderful friend by name Johnny. Johnny made me felt so special and we dated a couple of times. Johnny made me believe that I can start again. I have never been so happy in my life. He did not felt jealous if spoke to his friends. He always held my hand proudly and introduced me to his friends.  Johnny was with me through thick and thin and we finally got married.

Recently, I was felling feverishness and I went to the hospital to check up and I was diagnosing of pregnancy symptoms. I was three month pregnant. It was a joy of my life. Johnny could not hide his joy when he heard of my pregnancy as he keeps on shouting I have made it, I have made it!