Tired of Talking About It
by How do you pull yourself up after getting a huge blow? If you’ve been fired or suffered a huge injustice, it’s so tempting to keep hashing and re-hashing the situation over in your mind. This is my story of how I’m coping with something along those lines.
I was left with no choice as that is what is written into my union contract. My boss lied to me about several things, including his support. The entire time he criticized those who brought up allegations against me, he would make statements about how he knew they held no merit and had no evidence to back up their claims. I provided him with evidence from them praising my work. Yet, in the end, because of a lot of politics and other things I don’t have the energy to write about (my filing a whistleblower complaint at his urging), he turned on me. He quoted their words verbatim, even though all written documentation pointed otherwise.
I was set up for failure from the beginning. I had the chance to leave and he sabotaged my reference check.
I could and probably will write a book about my experience of taking the brunt of politics, but for now I want to re-focus my mind on things that are hopeful, fruitful, positive and uplifting.
When I go into my reverted position, I want to go in tight-lipped, lay low and just get my work done. I doubt I will ever show the fun and “cool” side of me at work ever again-or at least for a very, very long time.
Outside of work, however, I am going to continue to be me and pursue life-pursue living and enjoying this beautiful creation God has given us before it all goes to pot. I am going to stop thinking about me, and all my pidly problems, and start giving back to the community. I’m going to get involved in church again, and do my part to help the environment. I’m going to vote for Obama and I’m going to continue to petition embassies around the world to stop violating UN agreements (to stop torturing and murdering innocent people just because they aren’t Communist or Muslim). I’m going to keep snowboarding, kickboxing and dancing upon injustice. I’m going to continue to pursue my dreams and passions-like writing and passing the baton to this next generation.
I don’t have the time or energy to spend dwelling on what happened. Instead, I have to focus on what will happen; that is, what is within my power to make happen.
To all my friends and family, I am very appreciative of all the love and support I’ve received. It has been very overwhelming in a good way; it has been extremely comforting. I need to move on now. I need to hear about your lives, what you are going through, and what you are looking forward to. Let me be a shoulder for you to lean on and not just me being so “egocentrical” and self-centered all the time.
Cheers: To Life!
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