Earning my Survivor Title Every Day

I also learned that there are other triggers that can cause a lapse, a lapse being the thought of re-offending. I have learned that everyone who has offended can and does have these lapses from time to time. It takes the daily work learned in therapy that keeps one from re-offending. For me to stay a survivor I must also live daily without re-offending.

I keep in mind all I have learned in therapy every day. I also surround myself with people who know my   past and they as well as I help me stay away from any situation that could be considered inappropriate. This includes staying away from things like movie theaters not because there would be anything wrong with me going there with my friends but if I am not there then I can not be tempted or accused. I also use the knowledge that my name is on the registry of offenders and predators. As an offender I follow all the rules and keep in mind that my name and address is on the list and this helps me as much as it does those who live around me.  People that live around me know to watch because of the list and I know to watch myself because I know they are probably watching.

I am sorry for what I had done and I will never ask for forgiveness because I never feel like I deserve to be forgiven for taking the childhood of those I have hurt. I have forgiven those who hurt me because it was the only way for me to survive.

There are many articles to teach parents on how to really protect their children and why therapy works for some and not others and why the rates are not being officially tracked. Those articles maybe should be written by someone else. I have thought about writing them but I am not sure I am qualified for those. I will leave that for you to judge.

This is my last article on this subject

God Bless You