Sick and Tired

Everyday at swim practice, I try as hard as I can. I always do. No matter where I am, no matter where I’m doing. I’m one of the 5 fastest people on the team, and I’m only a sophomore (High school).

Then after practice, I get out of the water and I see the parents of the club swimmers just give me this kind of weird look. Its like they are thinking: “Why is that kid even swimming? He’s just so short and fat, he’s probably one of the slowest people there.”

It doesn’t matter what I’m doing. There is always someone there, giving me that same look. I could be programming, doing trig, swimming, running, anything. It seems as if I have just been branded for life as a weak, unintelligent, looser.

It really sucks. People who get to know me know that I am the complete opposite of those things, but it is hard to even talk to people when they instantly stereotype you as someone who isn’t cool to hang around with.

People give me a hard time about things, and I have no idea why. I’m done with being pushed down.

I’m going to show everyone why I am not an idiot, looser, wimp, etc. 

(This article started out with me being really pissed and then I lost steam…)

Anyway. I’m going to loose some weight (I’m on the borderline of being at an unhealthy weight range right now), I’m going to drop some time on my swim events, I’m going to improve my grades, and I’m going to start working ahead in my programming class.

I hate our social system. The best looking, stupidest people are the most popular, while the smartest people are marked as losers and nerds. (At least we will rule the world one day)