Straight, Bi or Gay: So Tired of Being Tired

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Why does it a matter knowing a persons sexual preference? It does matter when they/you are looking for a partner to be with, but once you have found someone, doesn’t the whole topic feel old? Your focus should change to your partner and that the two of you are happy together? I don’t know where you stand on this, but “I strive to be the best woman that I can be,” not necessarily “the best lesbian that I could be.” My main focus is on being a good woman, and living a peaceful, loving, giving and fulfilling life. How about you? For some it takes years to figure out if they are straight, bi or gay, you may still be confused over this, and long for answers. I know a woman that had her first lesbian relationship at 42 years old, while another friend of mine knew at age twelve. Everything in life is “individual,” and you need to do what is right for you, and hopefully you have/will find your true happiness soon. I’m tired of people trying to make other peoples lives miserable because they are bi or gay. One thing that bothered me the most from my single days was finding a wonderful lesbian woman, wondering if I ever would. I don’t miss looking and wondering, “is she gay?” For me, being single was not fun, I don’t enjoy the “hoping” that that “special one” would show up. Love can be wonderful, but when it hurts, does it ever! I do wish that more focus would be spent on successful, happy, loving bi and gay relationships, but instead it seems that “labeling” and “hate” and “discrimination” and “analyzing” and “the fight for rights” is still at the forefront of our coverage. I know that we need the media to bring our issues to light, but I wish that the media would stop protraying us as a “singled out group.” Sometimes the media coverage makes me feel as though bi’s and gays are being isolated. Yes, I do feel tired, as though we are lost in a battle with no end. I want to be “me,” and I want to be able to express what I feel, and get people to be open to thinking differently if I can, or if I have a different view to offer them. Part of my frustration is also having an understanding of “gay life,” and the different emotions that go along with being gay, and not feeling accepted, that “this” is not a “natural thing.” I try to live a “normal” life, not putting the focus on a label, but it is “there,” it has become what defines us in society. It’s also my personal frustration over what can I bring to readers to make a difference in their lives? I am in a “process,” of finding “my message” that I want to share with you. What message or example do you want to set, that you would want to share with others?