Insane Insomnia

I cant sleep. I usually never can. Staying up late is a gift, and a curse. It’s a large bundle of things. It is currently 3:21 AM. Yikes. Can it be healthy to stay up late? What if it throws off my REM cycle…hmm. I’ll google it after im done writing tonights blog. On a lighter note…I have been drug free for seven months and seven days. For anyone who doesnt know…I got caught smoking weed on Nov. 8 2009. I was driving into school with my brother and we were pulled over for speeding. The shock of being caught was bitter but worth it. Life is enjoyable without drugs. Seeing what doing drugs did to my parents felt….horrible. Just the basis of the deception behind doing drugs behind peoples back is devastating. What was I thinking? Ugh. The foolishness of being an American teen in this day and age is crazy. I mean, just take a look at the world around us. Its near impossible to be a good kid. Im not trying to make excuses but…this world doesnt help. Everything around us is corrupted. Its near impossible to consume any form of media that isnt corrupt. But I guess we dont have that much to worry about. Im watching a show as im writing this on VH1 called “OCD Project.” The fundamentals behind the show are amusing. What they do is they take people who have extreme fears and compulsive disorders and they arent allowed to satisfy their compulsions. One girl was bawling her eyes out because she hadn’t washed her hands in eight hours. Holy cow. Another person is committed to believing that his thoughts would hex everyone around him. He is unable to exit a building without looking back to make sure it isnt bursting into flames. Another woman is terrified of touching anything dirty because she has a fear of getting HIV. HIV is an STD. She’s afraid to give money to a homeless person for fear of getting HIV. This truly is pathetic. I can understand being healthy and cautious about germs…but to that extreme? Goodness. What is this country coming to? Everyone in America is bent on this ideology of everything being safe that they cant function properly. Where is everyones sense of adventure? Learn to live life! America doesnt have a safety layer. But thats what makes it so amazing! For every normal person theres ten people with a disorder thats made up. What’s with every person in the world being “diagnosed” with ADD. It isnt called Attention Deficit Disorder, its called GET KIDS OUT OF THE CLASSROOM AND LET THEM PLAY LIKE THEYRE SUPPOSED TO! If PE time was extended maybe children would have more energy and America wouldnt be fat. Well. This was my first entry…goodnight.