Long Year of Absence
by Deployments uphill battles and downhill falls.
Dealing with a deployment is hard enough on its own, putting the thoughts and fears into the mix. Makes going through it even harder. All of the insecurities; being forgotten about, not being loved, or not getting the chance to tell them they love you. Getting emails like this;
“I know your trying…but I need you to be strong so I can be strong…cuz if I spend all my time worrying bout how your doin im not gonna get anything done over here…and its gonna make the time go slower”
Getting something like this, takes everything and makes you fall. When you love someone, it is natural to worry. It does not make us weak, it makes us human. A year long absence may make the heart grow fonder, but does not make it hurt any less being away. Some days goes days, weeks, even months without a word; no call, no letter, nothing.
The Downhill Fall:
The long nights alone, in a cold bed. Waiting by the phone or the computer, checking the mail box every five minutes. Hearing about another fallen soldier, instantly thinking of your own. Feeling the tears roll down your face, when the National Anthem plays, Far , or Come Home Soon. Finding out that your soldier cannot come home when you both expected, or that their deployment is being extended. Having your relationship not make it through, or arguing all the time. Having something bad happen, our worst fear becoming reality.
The Uphill Battle:
Being strong for not only yourslef, but your loved one. Dealing with all the trials and tribulations that come with deployment. It takes a lot of courage, commitment, and communication. Takes loving someone with nothing to hold, being independent, and being positive.
Life was never suppose to be easy, it would not be worth it if it was. Not even for a soldier, is being away easy. Having to leave behind their loved ones, their home, and all the good things. Most people do not take the time to put themselves in a soldier’s boots. Understanding everything they are going through, or have to deal with. Let alone put themselves in the shoes of those who stand beside those soldiers. It is sad to say that some people have no idea, what is really important.
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