I don’t know the meaning of life, but I do know how it will end.

I have neglected school and any further education in the past to concentrate on the one thing that really interested me, in fact I have been obsessed with this question since I can remember, it was my first question when I was able to speak, and that was “where do we come from” nobody can answer that question or as come close, so I thought about where we are going instead. To get the answer to that question I needed to understand and learn about the past. I taught my self some history and read a lot on religion, and studied science all from books I got from the library, but the one book I found most helpful although very hard to understand was the bible.

I found it very difficult to believe what the bible said at first, and agreed with most people it was utter bunk and rubbish. But when you look at the state of affairs with this planet and what the bible prophecies you cannot ignore it. It tells of things that have happened and things that will happen, and that got my attention. Well wouldn’t you put ten pounds on a horse if you had the results before they ran. Yes you would and results pay dividends that are why we trust people who tell us they know better than us. Yet you cannot understand a book that tells you your future and gives good advice about how to live your life. Simply because threes a few human errors that get in the way of gods word. Well I know there are many of you who don’t believe in god and don’t want to. That’s ok if you want to rely on your own intelligence to know better. Or science to tell you better.

Science is a great source of finding out things and has given us everything that we have today, cars, trains, planes and, an easy lifestyle, that’s getting better and better I think. But threes one thing science cannot give us, and that’s unity.

Unity keeps people together, its supports humanity and gives strength to small or large groups who need moral and spiritual support. With out this unity then people would fall apart, families would and do break up with out unity. And it’s because of this word that I believe and trust in the bible. People say religion causes wars and I agree. But its science that provides the weapons and destroys. We can argue about religion till we are blue in the face, but one thing is for sure, and that is religion can do something science cannot, and that is make unity, I don’t think there is a mathematical formula for unity. It does not have any say in science because you can break physics and numbers down to there zero values and that leaves you with nothing, a big fat zero in worth. No value. So I would not depend too much on science and math.

Because I have a choice between science and religion I have to choose religion, and it doesn’t matter which one, because they all hold people together. Where as science is an academic subject that concerns itself to the individual rather than trying to create unity. With science one can ponder and be left alone to find answers, one can sit under the apple tree and find a solution to a problem. But what if this problem involves human life and the end of the world, what if there was a book that foretold of the end of the world. Well you know there is a book that says this. But disbelieve its words, just because some scribes or scholars made a few mistakes a long the way.

But there is one thing and that is if you put your trust in science and math then you should know this much, that there are more people who would put their faith in the bible and seek answers to this question than all the mathematicians and scientists put together.

Well that’s the reason I used the bible to get answers to my questions.

Because I could not find any university teacher or lecture that is qualified to answer my questions, as they all use the bible at some stage to find their answers.

Anyway, I really want to talk about finding the truth to what’s going on in this world, I just don’t feel comfortable with the excuse that we are all here for the good of science. There as to be more to us than that. We are a very intelligent species and a beautiful race of people that deserve better than to be told we are all about the survival of the fittest and that the best man wins. That’s rubbish, it’s all about staying together and keeping unity, and we can only do that through love and understanding of each other. Wisdom and insight are the two most important tools to seek in this world, UN fortunately they don’t come easily or if at all. I know some university graduates who are very academic but who are also to blind to see past their own nose for answers, I believe it is more important to have wisdom and hindsight than to try to be smart with clever answers, I mean nobody likes a know it all do they.

I don’t think I could have written this book if I had gone to school and been conditioned by the way they teach at school, all they do is put a book and pen in front of you and tell you to get on with it, sometimes you might be lucky if the teacher is in a good mood and wants to explain to you how to get the answer, well that’s how it was in my day anyway. Waste of time if you ask me, nobody ever made anything of them self through that kind of teaching, besides it wasn’t learning was it, all I know it was about remembering things and recalling them back to teacher. We did not learn a thing. So how the hell did they expect you to go out in to the world and succeed with a mind full of their quotes and ill advised information, because what we took as being right then is all wrong now. I mean the education system as not learned it self after all these years of learning on how to best educate the children of today because they are always arguing its all wrong. What’s the point?

I can honestly say I don’t know how I came by my insight and dare I say it little wisdom that I have. Because as a child I was never at school. I was a wayward boy and caused a lot of trouble for my mother, they give it a name today don’t they. Attention deficit thingy or something, any how I must have had it because I could never stay in school, I would run out and stay in town all day or hide some where till home time. I was to abscond from school like this till I was sixteen. Never really made any attendance at all. So much so nobody knew me when I did go to school, for a day. That is if I could stay in for a day and not half.

I remember now where I learned my wisdom, yes, my mother used to tell me fables,

Some of Solomon’s wise sayings and also Aesop’s fables, a fable is a story with a hidden message that can cleverly or pictorially describe a situation or an event.

By listening to these fables I was able to use them in the real world and take a good look at what was happening around me. Even in today’s society you can get a picture of what’s going on the in the world just by sitting back and watching.

When you do see the ugliness the worlds gotten it in to then you begins to wonder why? And maybe how to make it better?

I don’t want to do that, that’s not my job, all I can say if we just learn from the past and use it to show us a better future then maybe things will get better?

But learning isn’t just remembering what happened, it’s about getting insight to what happened so you see a bigger picture and a more clear description of what went wrong. That is learning to identify a mistake and not just relying on a memory to fix any future problems from recall.

This is what wisdom is, when we understand what went wrong in any given situation, we can use that understanding to make wrong right.

I said I read of lot of Aesop’s fables, well by reading these stories I believe they have had a very important impact on my life, and showed me ways of getting out trouble when I have been confused and had no idea what to do in lots of situations.

I am just glad that I had this tool to help me when I needed it.

Its not just Aesop’s fables and king Solomon’s wise sayings that make you see things clearer, I think you need a little help from somewhere else, people say we have this enlightened awareness hidden some where in our minds, and that if we can get to or open it some how it can show us a truer or more logical reasoning than we already have. Since our minds are blind to what’s really going on out in the world by way of blinding it with our desires, and wants, that’s why we concentrate to much on succeeding and making things better for ourselves instead of thinking about others who’s needs are greater. It’s this selfishness I think that stops us knowing anything about our hidden abilities in our mind.

I just know one time when I needed a little comfort I took some amphetamines or speed if you know it by that name, that my whole mind opened up completely.

I was absolutely gob smacked by what I was seeing, I did not hallucinate or see anything that shouldn’t be there, what I mean was I took some of this speed and I started to read the bible because I was bored. It was while I was reading the bible I was getting a clear picture and making sense what it was saying in some parts.

I realised it was like reading Aesop’s fables, the stories in the bible was like reading ancient Greek mythology.

To me this was all amazing, since the last time I read the bible it didn’t make any sense at all, it was as if, I was given some hidden knowledge to be able to unscramble the messages that I saw in the bible. I could not stop reading it.

I told people about what I had seen and what was really happening in the bible, but as you have guessed they all thought I was lunatic and junkie.

I could not get any one else to see what I was seeing and that was sad to me because I knew I was on to some thing fantastic here. At the time I was trying to get a clear picture of what the bible was saying to me, I noticed a lot of other people were trying to decode the bible and getting hidden messages from it. So it was not just me doing this there were others like, Michael Drosnin, and other people from all over the world took an interest in what was going on with the bible having hidden meanings.

This all seemed to me like an awakening, I could see people from all walks of life realising a new millennia, it was fast becoming a new sensation to know what was going on in the world and what the bible really means to people.

I also realised that I needed to come of the amphetamines and try to read the bible with a clear mind, I did just that and approached it with a coherent manner.

I can really say I learned a lot from the bible, I noticed one thing very important, and that was the main question the bible tries to ask, if you read the beginning of the book and read where it says in genesis, that god questioned Adam and Eve about the forbidden fruit that they both ate, God asks Adam why he listened to Eve, and Adam replies, “it was that woman you put here for me she told me to eat it”.

By this answer alone that God was very upset that Adam had listened to Eve that made God very angry. The understanding I had learned from that was that Adam had disrespected god’s commands, and put his trust in Eves instead.

The whole idea of the word respect comes into place when I read the bible. I know people work on the emotion of love to make good of what is bad, but I don’t think it was Gods idea to use love as a tool to defeat evil.

What I am getting at here is the thought that nearly all man and womankind are led to believe that love cures all.

When in fact it breaks all, it tears people’s hearts apart, it destroys souls, and it deceives and misguides us into a blind relationship that never really lasts.

Love is a feeling that should never be trusted; love is a desire that shatters mens hearts when we are rejected by the one who shows us no love at all.

Love is a conqueror that kills the spirit and takes the soul from humankind, love is all that lends itself to vanity and selfishness, for it is love that keeps you from being free.

If you love some one then you should let them be free from your desires to make them your own. We cannot make ourselves to be enslaved by the feeling s of love.

The way I understand love is that it is not a good thing if this is what comes of listening to our hearts instead of respecting Gods word. I think God would rather humankind respect him than love him. As love can easily be given freely through compassion or care without any real effort, though respect is something completely different, and its respect that you have to earn, and I think God would rather us learn a lesson in earning something rather than trying to find something that we all was born with in the first place that gives love, and that is a heart, why would God try to teach us love when we have that feeling already at birth.

Its just some people choose to be careless with there hearts and use it for there own self worth and vanity.

That’s why I think love does not work to bring people together or to use it at a tool to combat evil. The word love is mainly used to worship something or some one.

We use it to express our uppermost feelings of desire to want something or someone.

Because love is so easily given and taken away, it cannot be a good thing to trust or rely upon when needed in a situation like Gods word or commands. When God gives us a law to follow and by that law he means to respect it not to love it, for love is an emotion that can get in the way of truth and blind the facts that rely upon a spoken word and not the passions of the heart.

“Don’t let your heart rule your head” people say so why do we do just that? And use it to find God?

The way to God he says it to respect and revere Gods word, I know he mentions the word love to use it to love your brother and love your father, though he never says your mother or sister I wonder why? But he never did say love was the be all and end all. He said the truth was the way to find God and fight evil. And that truth relies upon giving your total respect and doing what God commanded in the first place and that was not to listen to any one else but God himself. All mankind give there oath to woman in marriage to trust to obey and to stay together, I don’t think God wanted man to serve two masters did he? How can you serve God and be a servant to your wife at the same time. You cannot that’s the answer. I am not saying marriage is a bad thing it is not, I am just saying that to respect Gods word and to worship God properly you have to give respect to that law and decide who you are going to serve one or the other? Do you respect Gods word or use your heart and love the idea of being in love and put your faith in woman?

That is all God is asking.

In all honesty I think we all should pay respect to God and show reverence to his commands, because you cannot really love what you cannot see and say I love God because I feel he is with me. To tell you the truth god does not need your love. He as all the love of his own, why try to give him something he does not need? Or to prove you full fill is commands with a feeling that takes away the very thing that Gods trying to save and that is your soul. I know in one of the ten commandments God says to love him with all your heart and soul and mind and all of your strength. So really god does not need love all on its own to make a bond with him if he needs love at all.

I think again that God wants us to earn his respect because we know that love can be given for free he says it flows like waters in a fountain, “come take it for free” he said.

It is respect that as to be earned and that don’t come for free or easy. This is the whole point we seem to miss in society and the bible, that is why I think we are in the state of affairs we are in , in the first place with this planet and its people and God, simply because we do not respect all three.

We take from the planet, we take from each other and we take from God what is rightly his.