Thanks Eddie Guerrero

It was Dan that told me Eddie had died, via a text message and I just sat in my house for a full thirty minutes by myself, crying. I guess I felt connected to Eddie because we had similar things happen in our lives and we both managed to change them. I’m not trying to say that my life was just like his. I never spoke to him, never met him or anything like that.

He reached a point in his life where he didn’t like whom he saw in the mirror, and then changed it. Like he said, he wasn’t proud of who he was but he’s proud of the things he done to change to who he was in the end.

A few years ago I was drinking every night from 2am till sometimes 6pm the next day. There was drugs a lot of the time too, the first was Cocaine followed by Ecstasy, followed by Amphetamine, followed by Weed. And then there was all the women who passed through my life. It got to the point where I hated myself and it simply had to stop so I made that change and started to slowly get away from who I was.

In later years there were times when I could have slipped back into it, but I needed to draw inspiration from somewhere and this is when I started to learn about Eddie Guerrero the person via websites, news boards and magazines. Whenever I started to feel like slipping I would go back and read about where he had been in his life and where he was at that time and it helped me a lot.

When the WWE visited England I had the opportunity to go to one of the shows with Eddie performing. At the end of it Eddie was in the ring with Cena, I think Eddie was the Champion and he was saying on the house mic that he loved us all and he loved what he does. My friends were cheering and what not, and they don’t know this, but I honestly felt proud to be an Eddie Guerrero fan.

He’d never know what sort of inspiration he was to me, so I want to take this opportunity to say that, Eddie; thank you for helping me stay on the path to the person I wanted to be and I just hope that I can continue my life making the right decisions.