Lessons Learned

Yes, it’s bad enough that I can barely pay for the gas to drive me from point A to point B, now every time I get into it, I must see the terrible message he left for me. I purchased some touch up paint, but it still remains visible. For awhile I thought, it must be me why else would these terrible things be happening to me? I thought about the laws of attraction and that I must be sending something out in the universe that would attract such negativity.

What I realize now is that, I have been so terrified of being rejected because of my life history: being an abandoned child, having a difficult history with my adopted family and various other experiences that I realize that sometimes it is difficult for me to let new people into my life; and at the same time being able to recognize and decipher the difference between those who really care and those who have other agendas.

What makes the situation even more difficult at times is the reality that logically the “good” people often don’t have as much free time as the “other” people do because they have (for example) family that have taught them how to love themselves and know their worth, thus, creating a situation in which they have very little need to turn to new friendships, etc. Because of this, making friends these people often ends up taking much more time and effort and in the meantime, when you have no family, you must literally take what you can get. It can be a lonely difficult journey sometimes, but it can also be a strengthening and empowering experience as well.

Yes, it is difficult to share much of this history with the world, but I know it is part of my “healing” and “growing” process right now. The more that open up about the things that are “holding” me down in life, the more I know that I can get past them. The more that I know I will learn to accept them as experiences and not who I am. Once I get them “out of my system” I will no longer feel embarrassed or ashamed about them. And, at the same time, hopefully, it will allow others to feel safe to either silently accept their not so proud life obstacles or be able to share them with others more freely. It is a liberating feeling to know that you can express everything inside your heart and know that others will still love and accept you as a beautiful person worthy and in need of love.

I know I still have much to learn in this world, in my journey in life, but I am open to it. Thank you all with all my heart for caring and continuing to read my story.

Blessings and best wishes to all.

Joie Schmidt © Copyright 2007 All Rights Reserved.

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