The Sunshine Through the Rain: Buried Treasure and Angels

About four weeks ago, I finally got a new job through a temp agency.

After all my struggles with going through one sales job after another that promised me the moon and the stars, but delivered rain clouds instead, I thought the stress level in my life would have been significantly reduced. However, I forgot how stressful a new job really is and can be.

While everyone I work for is very nice, the company and position incredible with much room for immediate growth and success, a new job is a new job and you must get used to everything, fit in with each new person, and keep your mind lucid and sharp to learn new things every single day for as long as the training process goes on. And, I had simply forgotten how stressful a new job could be.

“When you’ve gotten to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.”-Thomas Jefferson

The first two weeks were half weeks. I started work the day after Christmas and as most people who have been following my personal struggle (may your lives always be blessed) know that I have been through much in a short period of time (i.e. being robbed, in great financial trouble as a result, stressed from not having a job and going on more interviews and trainings than I care to go into, with more “sales pitched” broken promises of job descriptions).

The holidays alone are often stressful by themselves for many people. I am no stranger to this phenomenon. Having been estranged from my adopted family for the past 8 years, I have chosen to spend the holidays alone for the past three years. Friends have offered to have me over, but its still such an emotional time for me; I just don’t want to bring anyone down during the holidays. Plus, people don’t know, and they often ask questions that are seemingly innocent, but tough to answer like: so what is your family doing for the holidays? What did you get them for Christmas? Etc…the list goes on.

In fact, this sort of general question asking goes on everyday of the year for me, making it very difficult for me to have a normal conversation with anyone past the initial pleasantries. I know this adds to the high levels of stress I have been going through lately. It makes thinking about dating and making friends more difficult. Most people start to ask about what you do on the weekends to be nice, or where you family lives, etc.