What Will I Do When He Leaves Me?

In four years, my youngest son of two will be on his way to face the world. He will be responsible for himself, at least that’s what I expect. I’m a single mother with two sons, never married. I still have faith though. When my youngest son leaves home, I will miss him, just like my oldest son, but that’s life.

Parents, do you ever think back to the day your child or children were born? I think back to the day my children came into this world, up until today. Boy, aren’t they all cute little angels at first. You just want to freeze them, so they can stay that way forever. How they change so fast, sometimes you wonder what happened. Anyway, my oldest will be twenty-nine, yes, I know, that’s a fifteen year difference. To be honest, it was easier for me that way being a single mother. Not that I planned it of course, though it did enable me to stay in control financially, emotionally and mentally, so I could handle my business. Raising two growing up at the same time, ooh, that would have been a little too much for Jacqui51. One disadvantage they did have with the difference was growing up with no other siblings in the home. They got through it and so did I.

In the beginning, it was frightening wondering if I would make it raising them by myself, but I did. My youngest son will be eighteen in four years. It seems time went by so fast, my baby days are over. Thank God. Being a single parent with two children is what I am, I brought them into this world and it was my responsibility to raise them, that’s what I did my very best to do. People compliment parents for raising their children alone. To me, I did what every parent is supposed to do. I personally rather compliment those parents raising more than one child at a time, especially if they are close in age. I don’t know how they do it and it would have been a challenge for me. Although, I know the Man above would have helped me through it, the way he helped me and still is, with the two I have.

Through the years, I’ve heard stories about single parents and even married parents. How they struggle or have struggled in one way or another by not having anything to eat, no money or maybe no where to live. I’m blessed! Don’t get me wrong, my sons are just like most children and raising them wasn’t easy, but we made it. We had our struggles, but not any of the ones I mentioned above. In addition to the Man above, I give a lot of credit to my Grandmother, who helped raise me. To parents facing struggles right now, just don’t give up. Just stay on your knees, whether you feel good about the way your life is going or not. I know it seems like it will never get better, but it has too. Remember, God has you in his hands. Just be humble and don’t be afraid to ask. There is assistance out there, you just need to know where to find it and take advantage of it, until you are able to get yourself to where you need to be. Those who have been there and made it through, proves that. I’ve been there.

I’m almost finished raising my two children, and my contribution to society will be accomplished. Yes, I did it. I’m happy and sad at the same time. For the last twenty-nine years, my life has been solely dedicated to raising my children.

What will I do with myself, when I’m left home alone? Sit around feeling lonely? Start going out and socializing more? Will Prince Charming finally show up? Will I travel around the world? I know one thing for sure, I WILL ENJOY THE PEACE AND QUIET !!