When I Want to Live

There are times when you think that life could not be worse and then something happens which proves you wrong. I have been through a lot during my 29 years. So many times I thought life was so unfair to me. So many times I have thought of giving up. Giving up everything, even my miserable life. Fortunately I never tried anything that drastic for I would have missed so much!

Yes, though at times life can be such a pain, I have to admit there are moments in life when you want to live. Yes, live. Live the moment, live the minutes, the seconds.

I feel like that when the sun is shining high in the sky without a cloud in view. I have the chance of living on an island surrounded by magnificent beaches. I wish I could describe the experience of walking barefooted in the white sand. The caress of the sun rays on my skin, my hair flowing in the gentle breeze, my ears kissed by the sound of waves sweeping the shore.

Right now am at the office and thinking about all this just because the sun is high in the sky and it’s rays are teasing me through the window. I love the sun. I love the beach. And yes, sometimes I love my life. Lately it’s more than just sometimes because I feel loved by my husband and blessed to be married to a wonderful man.

I want to live when I hear one of my favourite songs on the radio. I want to live when my husband silently hugs me from behind when am busy doing some household chores. I want to live when I watch a great movie at the cinema. I want to live to see my sister graduate and get married. I want to live when my little cousin hugs me. I want to live because I believe there are more beautiful events to take place in my life.

All this to say that no matter how hard life seems at times, one should always have hopes for a better and brighter future. I know that’s what made me live and still makes me want to. Whenever something went wrong and the urge to let everything down crept into my mind, I always washed them away by thoughts of brighter days.