Can any Man Become Gay?

Sex is the oldest and still the most heated subject in history. A search on sex will give more results than one could ever shift through. It has been praised and condemned. It has been shown in public and hid behind doors. Regardless of the morality of things sex is and always will be an issue in sociality.

What does this have to do with being gay or straight? Everything as far as I can see. This line of thought came to me in one of my darkest hours. I was living a life of pleasure and fulfillment, which is ironic because I found neither. I would have a different girl every couple nights. I made an art out of picking up women. A true player.

But as it is with such things it always took a little more and then a little more to give me any sort of enjoyment. I dived into all things I could think of. I opened myself to all possibilities. I was exalted as a modern man by my friends. A man not afraid of his own sexuality or his own self. Which also is ironic considering that I had never been so closed minded in my life. I bluntly refused to have anything around me that would cause me to feel guilt.

One night I was striking out again and again with the ladies. Fresh pleasures I could not find. It was then that I was approached by a couple of lovely young adults. They talked to me about having a threesome. I wasn’t against it. Then they explained that the male was very bisexual and wished to have me before his wife did.

I would be lying if my first reaction was to run or say firmly no. The odd thing is that I didn’t care. Thankfully I did not go through with it, but as I thought about it later I could not for the life of me reason as to why I shouldn’t have. In my years of no strings attached sex I had done numerous things that I would have sworn never to do a few years before. I had tried just about every fetish in order to give them fair chance.

That was when I realized the flaw in my own lifestyle. I had lived without a line in the sand. Nothing was held from me. I had decided to try everything and with that mind set how can you say no to anything? What right did I have not to become gay? Even if I found no pleasure in it. I found no pleasure in the fatter girls I had been with, yet I still did it. I began to ponder. Can any man become homosexual? Why not? We live in a world without absolutes. I learned that in college very well. No God, no moral code, no sin, no guilt, no regrets, nothing after death. That was the battle cry of the professors.

With that as a man’s compass is there anything wrong? I have heard it said that you must find yourself in life. But with no line in the sand where do you find yourself? I never found myself. I never learned what I liked, only a thousand things I found empty. So really, if a man is willing to sleep with a woman he doesn’t like, is it such a stretch to sleep with a man he doesn’t like?