Military Life Isn’t So Easy

I start the day out with renewed confidence, that is until I realize what was missing from my family picture. My husband has been on active duty for 5 of the seven years that we’ve been together. When it was just myself in the relationship it was actually pretty easy to get preoccupied with work or paying the bills than to really focus on being down about my spouse being in harms way day and night. Now that we have two kids together I find it a little more difficult to hide the anxiety and depression. When my husband signed up for the military he was told all these wonderful things about how if he was activated there would be tons of support groups out there for the spouse and kids and there would always be a way to get help from them if I ever needed something and I couldn’t reach my husband. When my husband left if was very difficult on my son the most, partially because he is a daddy’s boy at heart. You have to listen for weeks, “When is daddy coming home?” Every time it just breaks my heart- but then I pull myself together and tell him that daddy is off playing soldier right now but when he’s done and he is allowed to come home he will be here and then you can play with him. Being the spouse of a military soldier definitely isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be, but I do say it has made me a stronger person.