Drugs and depression

Hi I am Nigel.

I live in the UK and I am a single parent of one son, I teach my son at home, he is home educated because I had trouble with him running our of school all the time. I talk about that later.

My story begins when I was four years old, I had a vision while sleeping on the front room floor with my mother on an old mattress for a bed, our house was a three bedroom council dwelling, and I had seven older brothers and sisters living there, so me and my mother had to sleep on the ground floor, with old coats for blankets, my mother raised eight children in one house on her own with very little money from the government, we had help from the welfare, not much help though, we just got by week to week with improvising from fire wood to stealing coal from next doors garden shed, we had no electric or gas for four years, because my mother could not afford to pay the reconnection fee, the welfare or the government would not pay the bill, because my father had left my mother with the arrears and told her she must pay it. Well she never did. So we had to cook from an open fire in the kitchen, and wash in freezing cold water, and this was in 1971. When most people had hot running water and central heating.

So my early years in that house were very depressing and much unforgotten. This vision I had one night started by me waking up and staring at my mother next to me, I had wanted to go to the toilet for a wee. I

Tried waking my mother, as I looked around towards the fireplace I saw two people in white clothes staring back at me, each was standing beside the fire, a man and a woman I think or a smaller man or boy, I could not get a clear picture of the other person but I did get a good look at the man on the left, he was not very tall about five feet nine or ten inches, and slim build his face was nice but vague as he smiled very gently at me, I was amazed because I knew this was not an ordinary encounter by two people looking at me as you would meet two people in the street or ensnare. This was something special I knew that. I was very much awake as I needed the toilet and remember pushing my mother to wake her, I also look around to the window behind me and saw a gap in the curtains so I got a good look at the night sky, it was very cold and I saw some stars in the sky it was very clear, but you could see the frost in the air blowing by. Then I looked back again at the two people, they was still there, I don’t know why I turned away to look at the window or through it, maybe I thought it was a reflection, as it was a little vague to see them, remembering it was also dark in the room, we had candles to illuminate the rooms,