Heart’s Life Support

I watch her sleep silently. She slumbers peacefully with no apparent cares as though she was lying in her cradle. I almost know what she is dreaming about. Funny, we finish each others sentences. We speak the same things at the same time and ohhhh….. we laugh! Reading of the mind comes naturally and I am yet to experience a bond tighter. The purity of her heart leaves me wondering, “Can I really take credit for this?”

She has never given me an ounce of trouble, despite all of life’s woes we endured together. I was sure when I uprooted her and moved almost 2,000 miles away from the only male figure in her life she would resent me. Instead she expressed elation that I made the right choice. You see, she understood; he had exposed her to things that she wouldn’t tell me until now. She understood at a very young age that which plagued my heart. She waited patiently for me to catch up, to see and know what her young but mature mind had already processed. That separation (my divorce) left just us. We have never left each other’s side. Some call me overprotective and it’s okay. I’ll even swallow the spoiling claims. God’s gift was my sole responsibility and I wouldn’t let HIM down.    

In this present time, I can say I’ve kept my word; for she is the brightest star in my sky. Always following her heart and making righteous choices; everyone sees her as near perfection. The only guide I had, came from that within my spirit. I have most happily made sacrifices for her happiness. She deserves it. I would lay down everything for her.

At one time, I thought being wholly present (in my daughter’s face) was the  core of our bond. After being asked many times, “How did you raise such a great child,” it never occurred to me until right at this moment; it’s all about mutual trust. She has always trusted that I would be there unconditionally; that I would communicate honestly; and that I would provide understanding and respect. As well, we must be consistent. Never make promises that you can’t keep because they remember. As well, she knows I trust her and every time she left home as a teenager I would always say, “I’m trusting you.” She never let me down.    

Everyday is a celebration for me when my daughter awakes. I have to give her a hug, greeting or something. There is nothing about her I dislike. She is pure in mind, spirit and body. If I did partake in envy it would be of her. She is my life’s truest blessing and it has been a journey… difficult, but steady.  I have been there for her and she has been there for me; and, 22 years later a divorce, death of a mate, some failures, moving and college our bond is tighter than ever.    

Ashley, mom is so very proud of you. I’m always trusting the greatness of your soul to take you beyond your dreams and always know I will be right there!