Our Existential Aloneness

Why is it that I feel lonely? I guess I’m just so use to having that other human just being with me, hanging out, talking, laughing, taking care of me, listening to my woes, my imagined woes and growing old with me. But in reality, it is a fact, a one ultimately real fact that all of us are destined to existential loneliness, being the captain of our ship, so to speak. At least we think we are the captain of our ship anyway, don’t we? We’re all full of crap aren’t we? We just here for awhile, maybe 70-80-90 years, some a lot less. Everyday I look in the paper and read the obituary about some guy or girl younger than me just gave it up and are gone from this planet, a mere sprinkling of dust left behind. The larger question always is: what did they do with the time they spent here? What am I doing with the time I’m spending here, now? Am I being all I should be or not? All I know is that I am me, maybe that’s good or maybe not, but one thing I am sure of, just wanting everything for yourself is not the way to go. It’s really not about me, it just can’t be, it’s not about anyone in particular because once these people go to the grave, soon they’re lost in the sea of history, all the events of their lives are forever disposed of into the great deleted e-mail wastebasket of human history. All they did during their lives is given over to the next generation of lives in constant motion trying to discover the ultimate meaning of existence. Not that our lives are a waste, mind you, there just a microcosm of the great plan that God has for all of us in the firmament of His creation. I guess that’s why as we get older, many of us turn to the Creator because we do begin, with wisdom start to see that the only real captain is God. God is really a choice, though it’s just so easy to try and explain Him away. Our society as a whole is trying to do just this one thing. The good ole’ U.S. is trying the best we can to move toward a world where He is outa’ here and we can finally be on own. If this continues, and by most indications it will, then we truly are on our own and we can see what happens in that scenario. All manner of problems arise and no human has any true answers how to fix them. God does have answers, even in the face of tragedy but it’s easier to get mad at Him and turn away. I’ve done as much and I haven’t even faced any real tragedies in my life comparatively speaking.