Always Alone

Why is it when you meet someone you get to know each other then he pops up and says he just wants to be friends or lovers no other commitment allowed , no falling in love with one another. Well my situation is i’m in love with someone i can never have because he belongs to someone else ,  we have two children together and i know he’s never going to get a divorce but i love him still anyway. Maybe because i’m too big for someone else too love me , i don’t know if i will ever get to cuddle up with someone at night , kiss them and tell them i love them and not have to worry about them getting up and leaving after we have made love, or him not spending enough tim e with the children we have . Just once i would like to wake up to a man that i know really loves me and will be there all day, But for now i guess i will be satisfied with what i have and don’t have. thanks for listening