Dating and Being Divorced After 50

Well I will keep this short for obvious reasons so here goes. I love being married, I never had children but I love being married. I married the first time when I was young, 27; we lived together for 2 years then we married and things changed. The jealousy occurred and the possessiveness occurred on my then wife’s part. We were married for 11 years and then we divorced. 21 years later I met an old classmate at my 30th high school reunion and one thing lead to another and we got married, that was a big mistake and I am still recovering from that mistake. We were only married for 3 1/2 years. Currently I am living with my 70-year-old mother, and I am divorced for the second time and now 53.

I hate online dating but I have met a few women online. I met an older woman online since I moved back to LA we met online in October. She has been aware of my current situation (being unemployed) since we started chatting online, she said that everything is bad all over and she understands, but though she works full time as a teacher and she is also under a lot of stress she continues to bring up my current situation. She has brought it up on 3 different occasions. I like her a lot, and unlike her first husband whom she was married to for 28 years, and the man after that whom she was involved with for 3 years, I am loyal, honest and monogamous, but sadly I am being judged and criticized harshly due to her bad experiences with the other two men.

Dating sucks and when you are burned from past relationships you tend to judge and compare new people whom you meet, with the other people whom you were involved with, it is unfair and unjust though it is human nature, but sometimes when a good person comes into your life you end up losing them because you pushed them away. Patience is a virtue as the old saying goes, but so many people are in a hurry and want to find their Mr. Right or their Ms. Right, well good luck because they do not exist and sometimes that person whom you are hoping and looking for is right there in front of you, and sometimes when you go elsewhere and you keep looking, then you realize goodness me he/she was right there and I let them go. Not all of us are Kings, Princes, Queens or Princesses but some of us are diamonds in the rough.