Game Called Love

Systems Consultant is tiresome esp. when you do have a rude gamer that makes you insanely gritting all the time. Fastforward to years ago, a rugged boy once transformed to a typical features TDH (tall, dark and handsome) man. I realize now that there’s no such thing as icky guy and that’s a little worse from the fact that his attitude changed for worst not for the better. One day, I caught myself falling in love with him; I had so vehemently been opposed. Once, again, I am face with the question: is it right to rely my heart on somebody-like him? The beginning was actually a dog and cat fight story, this time more than a lovers and less than a foe. At first, I thought it was the stupidest thing that I would get myself into. I never really thought of myself to fall in love with him. I don’t even really like the words or idea. To that, my feelings seems like a crossword puzzle to everyone and even to myself “No! Never! He’s not my type!”

Contrary to its word, I actually “eat my words” and I found that ridiculous. I’ve  think he was quite young, rugged and bully – not my type. To think I could withstand to it, I used to ignore him, but the more closely I gets. Why so, he’s always around, I can resist even take my system off him. “What the hell am feeling like this? Imagine, upon waking up in the morning he”s already on my mind. Sometimes even in my dreams and I just don’t know how and when this feeling started I just found myself always thinking of him. I had my sleepless nights if ever I fall asleep, he’s always on my dreams, whatever I’m doing he’s always on my mind. Wherever I am whatever I do, why should I waste my time just think about him? Hook on called love….

Aye! Soon enough, we get on. And I can now tell the world about it. But the worst was yet to come. Our relationship already put into a big tests. Until I found I am engaged in a very deep game of love. Ways seems like dark without a glimpse of him. And all I could picture myself drifting without right direction. My way out to find he’s such a race wizards, he has mastered the skills wrecker. To not even think I’m wise enough I cried out “damn you! What stupid games are you playing anyway…” how the hell he distorted my mind! I’m dumb, I drink and I look so disgusting that injured my ego and stressed my heart with so much pain. My life seems so miserable (despite the joyous season.) I went into the direction for all the wrong moved thinking getting into joyride would cease the pain and make me feel like a winner! I was wrong. Taking over is not the answer. Revenge in mind never a solution. Defense mechanism (is the right word) well; I won’t consider anyone to the rebound. Thanks to Michael, I had to go through with it, boost my ego and eventually moved on. He’s been good. But the reality brings my heart lies not into him. Well, love is such blind and fortunately love leads us back… in each other arms.