How Do You Stop Yourself From Wanting Him Back? I Love The Narcissist

“How do you stop yourself from wanting him back? I know that wanting him is toxic. I know this but I cannot stop myself from wanting him.
The part of him that fakes the love feels so good that I can’t help from picking up the broken pieces of glass even though my hands are bleeding. Stupid analogy I know but I suppose I am a stupid girl.
I imagine this is how a junkie must feel fending for drugs.
You know it’s slowly killing you but the high is so intense you just don’t”

                          I understand your feelings Lulu. There are a myriad of women who will support your stance, believe me you are not alone.  The greatest advice to give is to follow your heart. Do not fight it. You cannot fight your emotions; it will only irritate you more and frustrate you into depression.  Leave the pain and let it simmer. The boiling rage, anger and self flagellation will cool once our thoughts and energy are diverted elsewhere. Once you have dealt with your feelings, the anger that you feel will dissipate into humor and amusement.  You will discover peace and happiness, a friend of mine once said

          “Whenever one door close, God opens another. Sometimes it’s hell when you pass from one door to another in the hallway”.

No doubt it feels like hell in your life now but do not worry, do not be despondent, or pessimistic.  You will pass that phase and heaven will open its doors and take you in but you have to make the first Step.

He does not love you. If you cannot understand that then you have a much twisted sense of love and knowledge of what people do when they care for each other. He loves how you massage his ego; he loves that he can call on you whenever he is out of narcissistic supplies or when he is dubious about his place in the locus of relationships and dating. You reassure and substantiate that he is still the same young fractious buck he was a year or so ago.