Love What is It That Makes Me Go Crazy

Love what is it that makes me go crazy, insane, oblivious to everything that I am suppose to see? Is it wrong for wanting it so much? Or am I desperate and I can’t satisfy the individual I am; Can I give myself the missing piece in my life? Or I just don’t know what I want, am I too indecisive, do I need love or want it?

My thoughts seem to be falling forever, my heart beats restlessly, as I search for answers to why I tend to go crazy when I think about love. Imagination bewilders me sometimes when I see a beautiful girl, I often question myself if I would receive her heart & love if I saved her life. Desperate isn’t it? This love that I haven’t found already gives me the adrenaline and risk to make me undoubtedly dead, hopefully it revives me the way I think it should.

I look into the mirror, pointing out the faults about myself, the very faults I know I can fix, to become the best I can be, would it change everything? As much as I would want to say yes, I can’t because there is no promise tomorrow and is god going to give me enough time to prove myself…ß should we call that previous sentence “procrastination” or is it confusion? Having so many questions and not many answers makes me feel hopeless and not responsible.

Love is not measured by distance alone but by time spent, do I really need it? Funny how I ask this annoying question, it’s only annoying because my heart bleeding because of it. Irritating, a nuisance, pointless, nothing gained…*stops for a second* maybe it wasn’t love, maybe I haven’t found the right one to keep me focused, maybe I was too young to comprehend what was in front of me.

In conclusion, love makes me go crazy knowing how much I want it yet it hurts and it is also irritating because this need makes me feel hopeless and irresponsible, that just tells me… I am too young and I need to become stronger as a individual before getting what I truly want, I also need to earn it.