Relationship Kharma

Relationship Karma

How many failed relationships does it take before you find the one?  Is there really one out there for everybody, or are some of us doomed to roam alone our entire lives.  That sounds depressing, but I guess it could be possible.  So far, my world has been full of all the wrong men.  The worst part is that, so many times, you think something will work out, you think this time it will be different.  But, yet again, it doesnt work out.  You need those bad experiences though.  You have to learn from them, right?  Well, sorry, but all Im learning is that men are filthy liars.  But theres bound to be good guys out there right?  The good guys, like me, keep getting more jaded and bitter, and then our defenses seem more like playing games then how the real players act.  A book I read recently said, How can you not look if youre looking?  And how can you be truly happy by yourself if youre not?  I have so much fun with my friends, and I love having time to spend with them and by myself.  But, I do need someone.  I think we all need someone.  Not to make us happy, but just to feel complete, needed, loved.

What does karma have to do with it?  Do we all get what we deserve, or are life and love just completely unfair?  I know theres been men out there heart broken because of me.  Ive never meant to hurt anyone, and Ive tried not to, but its still happened.  So maybe some of these guys whove hurt me didnt purposely rip my heart to shreds.  Maybe thats just the way the cookie crumbles.  But Ive learned something from all these bad relationships, right?  Im not so sure anymore.  Maybe its just one of those times that Im down on my luck.

Ive known some amazing people in my life that constantly attract the most horrible people.  Do we have to take so much crap before we find someone worth it?  Maybe its all timing.  Maybe its this town.  All I know is, Ive kissed a whole lot of frogs, and theres not a prince in sight.