Summer Flings

I don’t want to waste my time waiting around to go back to school and pass up the opportunity to be with someone who may actually really be into me and want to be in a relationship. I could get back to school and this guy may not be interested in starting a relationship, but I can’t help but think that it will be different when we go back to school. We all know absence makes the heart grow fonder! I really miss him and I believe he feels the same way. We used to hang out in each other’s dorm rooms a lot and he would sleep with me. I miss him being a couple floors away. I could go see him anytime and now it is really hard! It was always so comfortable and time flew by when I was with him. He was also saying he wants to come to my house next year.

Ahh, I don’t know what to do. I was hanging out with the guy from home today and it was a lot of fun. My mom got home and he was talking up a storm with her. Haha It was nice to see a guy being so polite with my mom. My dad came in as he was leaving and he was talking to him too. I had a lot of fun talking with him today and driving around, just doing whatever. I want to have fun this summer. I don’t want my whole summer to just be revolved around my job. I want to do fun things on my days off and hanging out with him will allow me to accomplish this! I just don’t trust myself. I know I could fall for him, but I REALLY like the guy from school. I just don’t want to wait around and have it be for nothing. I’ve done this before with someone else while in high school, wasting your time on someone who will never feel the same way sucks. He used me and I am never going to let that happen again. I certainly don’t want to use someone, which is another con for a summer fling, unless he just wants a fling. I DON’T, or do I? ahh…

I know most people would just say I should keep hanging with the guy from home and see how it turns out, but I don’t know. I am so confused. I just keep thinking about how sad I will feel if I go back to school “in a relationship” because things with me and my best friend at school, who is this guy, will not be the same! I did homework with him too and it was fun because I was doing it with him! That was my least favourite class too. Haha I just miss talking all hours of the night and feeling so comfortable sleeping with him. Yet, I don’t wanna be lonely this summer.

I don’t know if I can be the type to just have a summer fling and I don’t know what this guy wants. Maybe he doesn’t even truly like me. Maybe he just wants to get some…lol BUT, he doesn’t seem like the type, never did. I guess time will tell, but I would really appreciate some advice! J