What Have I Done Wrong?

Upon recent evaluation, I have decided that men do not think with their brains. My boyfriend of the past five years, the father of my children, has decided he no longer wants a relationship with me. At first, I blamed myself. I thought it was something I did. Maybe I didn’t make him happy, maybe I wasn’t pretty enough, or skinny enough. Then I realized I was being stupid. I used to live and breathe to make him happy and it was all for nothing.

He came straight out and told me he found someone new. I am now seven months pregnant with my second child, and I have a beautiful nine-teen month old daughter. What made him realize, after five children, that he was fed up? I may never know the answer to that question, but I do know now that he was not thinking with his brain, if you catch my drift. It must have been the thrill of doing something forbidden, or the excitement of not knowing whether or not I would catch him in the act. Of course I was oblivious to his shenanigans, until he came straight out and told me.

In my opinion, it is not my fault. I can see nothing wrong with my end of the relationship. I have been faithful, and honest. I have put complete trust in him, to have him throw it away. My only concern now is for my daughter, and my child on the way. I’m not sure yet if he plans on being a part of their lives, but I do know that they are what I live for. They will have the best life that I can possibly provide for them, and all the love that I can give.