Asexual Tendencies

And the question of ‘good’ as well…

My definition of good is when one is self-sacrificing, and when one puts the other before the self.

You could say that love does this as well, but really if you examine human behaviour… that’s not really the case.

Love does not survive by one person sacrificing something to the other person, even if that is the case in the relationship (generally being taken for granted)..

They do that not because that person gets and is happy, they generally do it because what makes the other person happy, makes them happy… Humans can seem fundamentally selfish.

Somehow the more I see and the more I hear where people talk about their feelings, it seems like there’s more evidence that humans, for that fact, just do what makes them happy.

I’m not against love and commitment at all, honestly…

I love long-term connections with people, like a companiable love/continuous relationship, where each individual person within the relationship strives to help the other one be more of themself, and express themselves in full honesty and self-actualisation.

“I want a love like Johnny & June” – Heidi Newfield

That song personified to me really what true, romantic love should be and can be (without the selfish tag).

Yet, you could wonder nowadays if love can be made like that anymore… hmm.

If you haven’t ever listened to that song, I would recommend to. It will lighten your spirit.

I would also never inflict my personal views and experiences upon anyone else, our lives are about self-exploration and learning from our own mistakes, as well as finding out our own opinions upon topics. That’s kind of what makes each and every one of us unique in our own little way.

But I read somewhere else that intense rationlisation and the development of rational systems is kind of the enemy of love. If that is the case, then so be it.. I will embrace rationality completely and utterly, but will also always question the “What If” within my philosphical and psychological knowledge (as well as my personal opinion).

I like the unnatural look, airbrushing my face to where there’s no sign of any discolour and / or natural feel.

Some would say that my view and choice on this would seem unnatural.

My answer to that would be that I’m striving for more then what’s just set infront of me.

Trying to expand out of my head, you could say you’re only truly free when you are outside your head.

..(Or having nothing left)..

As in questioning the norm, the emotional and the physical.

This acceptance of that which is.. and embracing that which is, without considering other options and why it is, amplifys exactly that aspect of humanity that I do hope will change.

I only ever hope, never expect.