Leaving Baggage Behind

I am still trying to move in after going from a 4 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom townhouse.  My junk room is filled to the rafters and I am getting a washer and dryer delivered to that location today.  Currently a security system is being installed in this room and the installer advises me to get more of the stuff out before Sears arrives.  I have been feeling a bit like the couple in the sitcom Green Acres lately.  They moved to a country home from the city and their queen sized belongings got chinched in.  It’s the reverse with me in that I am coming from the country into the city and space is definately an issue.  I have moved 5 times in the past 3 years and I vow that where I am is where I am going to stay for sometime to come.  I am planning on pulling junk out of that room and trying to get my deep freeze in so that my new portable dishwasher will fit into my kitchen.  I decided that I wasn’t going to go back to hand washing dishes after selling my house and its modern ammenities.  The trick will be how to fit things in that will work well in less space and meet my needs.  It’s wierd that I am sitting in a subsidized townhouse with a professional degree unemployed and feeling like a lady of leisure.  Sometimes we make choices in our lives that come with outcomes that are hysterical.  I am choosing color schemes for my rental like its a house I own.  I have the latest high tech equipment and software to keep me connected to the outside world.  I have a room with a view in that my livingroom has a gorgeous bay window that would be great with a window seat.  I have a view from the upstairs window of city lights that is to die for.  True I don’t live in a penthouse condominium and I don’t drive an expensive sports car.  But I’ll tell you I can get from point A to point B quite nicely in my 2003 Echo.  I am getting decent money on EI after having resigned from a professional position in child protection.  I have sufficient work experience to pick up a job in almost any area so I am not worried about it all coming together.  The recent changes in my life have taken me off one path and placed me on another one hopefully the right one this time.  I am chomping at the bit to get my teeth into social justice or advocacy issues.  I would love to be in a pioneering role in the community where I can do what I term as real social work.  I have even said lately that I would sell cars or serve up ice creme before I will ever work in the child protection field again.  Is it crazy to give up a job that pays 60k with no job on the horizon.  Does it make sense to greet each day with enthusiasm and hope living in these set of circumstances?  Yet that is exactly what I am doing.  I am reconnecting with old contacts in this city that I met when I was a student in the social work program.  I have been contemplating what do I want to do and I mean really want to do over the past months.  While I don’t have a clear outcome I definately have a plan.  I will go into the EI career counselling program with enthusiasm.  I will network with people who I choose in order to find an authentic outlet for myself in the workplace.  Friends quietly watch me from a distance wondering where in the world I will end up after making all of these changes.  I will tell you this much that is I will like what I do next or I won’t be doing it.  My health and my happiness will get factored in this time around.  Life is too short to settle and make do on what we do five days out of seven eight hours a day.  At 52 I give myself permission to find right livelihood and meaning in my life.  Even sitting here submitting this article is something new I have embarked on.  Getting published has been a great experience for me and it is giving the writer in me permission to come out.  I will enjoy writing future blogs about where my life is taking me.  Hopefully you will be there with me sharing in the journey.