Okay, so I’m not exactly poor, but I’m certainly not rich. I’ve just lived through 2 years of finance hell. It was so bad that I couldn’t see my way out short of robbing a bank.

I was watching Oprah the other day. It was the episode where she had Finance Guru Suze Ormand on it. You know, helping those of us who are financially stupid. Check this, this woman had been 4 million dollars in debt and climbed out of it! Why in the world couldn’t I just climb out of my miniscule 20 thousand in debt?

I mean she was saying to tell the truth about your financial situation, I do, everyone around me knows I’m broke. I don’t spoil my children, I don’t live beyond my means (I live in my mother’s basement for crying out loud).

But Suze said this, “Money is attracted to power! So when you are down you feel powerless so money does not come when you need it most.”

I get it, I do, and trying to feel powerful is easier said than done when you can’t even go to work without getting your car towed. I’ve tried all of the tricks; I’ve written a check to myself and looked at it. I have envisioned myself winning or acquiring a large amount of money and envisioning myself living the lifestyle. I’ve written it all down. I’ve tried crazy internet stunt after crazy internet stunt to make things happen, and I have waited for the universe to work its magic. Nothing has happened.

I’ve prayed, okay that kind of works, but He only gives me what I need, not what I want.

My guess is that the reason my attempts haven’t worked is because I don’t believe enough. But when all you see is failure to achieve your goal, how can you believe? How can you believe and reign in you own power?

My scientific guess is that you must do what you love and believe in. So I am going to conduct an experiment and blog my research.

Theory: I can learn to believe to become powerful by doing what I love.

Hypothesis: I am a writer, so I must write and seek feedback.

I base this experiment on the fact that as I have written and received reviews, I become more confident in my abilities as a writer. I feel more alive and believe my IQ actually goes up a few points.

The thing is, reviews are key to the experiments so I must either blog these stories or articles so that I may get feedback from the readers.

I’ll conduct the experiment for two months and I will follow with a series of articles on my findings, Reviews are certainly welcome, but for the sake of empowerment, no flames should be considered only constructive criticism.

Maybe things will turn around, I already feel more empowered.