What has happened is that while you were trying to be ‘something’, you became ‘something’ very boring and disinteresting.  Accept it. You are no longer any fun to be around. People who once loved to be in your company have slowly one by one drifted away. The worst thing about that is you have rationalized their leaving as something necessary and beneficial. Life is formulated and sustained by the relationships you engage in. Being truly involved with others indicates a fullness of heart, body and mind. It also requires of you to ‘belly laugh.’ Along the way, you have forgotten and devalued the significance of play. Walking barefoot, frolicking in the grass, playing ball, ‘making whoopee’ in the most bizarre places and inauspicious times, going to see a movie you currently deem inappropriate, laughing for no reason whatsoever without feeling the need to explain, hopping on a plane to head to an unknown forbidden destination. Something in you is missing. You’ve felt that ‘icy’ void for a long time. But, you’ve continued to deny its ‘red flag’. You are an artist. You always knew this funky truth about yourself but didn’t know how to express it much less defend the insoluble need it has created in you. You can no longer deny its impact. Jump into the flame that burns illogically from the bottom of your feet. You are headed to a specific destination called, “Hallmark Inn”. There you will meet and greet the person who ‘flicks your stick’. It ain’t nothing personal. It’s just something you must do in order to push past the barricade that prevents YOU from being YOU. What has age got to do with it?

This lightheartedness in no way jeopardizes your privacy or causes you to throw yourself away. No. You will not be ‘wasting time.’   In fact, unless you deliberately set about to include more ‘raucous’ people into your inner circle, you will inevitably turn to stone. It’s high time for you to act like a clown; dance among the stars. Grill out. Invite the most unlikely and unsuspecting folks. Do those things that seem to you to be so absurd. Surprise yourself. Do something totally out of character. Be silly. Act ridiculous. Make the others around you wonder what you’re up to. In the meantime, something miraculous may happen: you may learn to truly have fun in your otherwise boring life.

Being truly ordinary makes one dangerous. Who can control, dominate, manipulate or influence a person who does not care either way? A man who lives simply by and from his instantaneous responses based upon gut instincts and nothing else ascends to heights yet untold. One who cares not what others say or think of him or his actions, or what will or will not be done  to him, for him or with him shows forth such an authentic character that little can stop or inhibit his ‘kismet’ layered path.  One authentic man to be found among billions changes the course of destiny for himself/herself and others. What an honor it is to see this authenticity in action.   He will not be bribed nor coerced into doing something he does not want to do.  He can not be made to feel guilty over anything. You would only knock yourself out trying to cause him/her to feel remorse or regret but nothing will be altered in him. You will only exhaust yourself issuing all sorts of personal fireworks toward him for they will be of no value or interest.

Imposition is an absolute impossibility for he does not engage his time or energy in any endeavor that he does not feel natural and convenient.  He creates his own waves and when and if the water gets too high, he either swims along with the current with no frantic motion or inclination to save himself, or should he so decide, and to be so vested on that level of interaction, will let himself drown with the comforting knowledge accompanied by a quick gesture of ‘it has sure been fun’ wink of good-bye in the process. He knows without knowing how he knows that life is a series of unexpected non-related events that are sequentially patterned and habitually joined together to make an intravenous spectrum of varied experiences for his/her own personal use. He/she may tie his shoes on some days, but most days leaves the matter to resolve itself.  He is hardly aware of the fact that he has shoes on much less whether they need tying or not.  Ambition makes no abode with him, nor can the scent of power arouse any trickle of emotion.  Money can’t penetrate his consciousness for he realizes without recall that he possesses in fullness everything there is to be obtained.  He enjoys his life with little or no distraction except the improbable drama he ensues. Wow! To be so ordinary is the single most extraordinary life one could possible ever envision.

Would you possibly possess the audacity of gumption to become ‘ordinary’, too? Do you think you could let up on yourself and the incessant ulcer producing ideas of success you possess?  Can you for one minute allow yourself the liberated freedom to laugh out loud for no reason or cause? (Three times!)  Would you forget for a moment the actuality of fulfilling a role of who people think you are and what you are supposed to do with your life?  Will you unleash the hold you have so tightly on your ambitions and desires to succeed and get ahead?  {Ahead of what?} Can you forget the way you look, the car you drive, the house you live in? Could you mingle with any and everybody without a further evaluation of status and background? Can you spontaneously walk up to someone in a grocery store, gas station, boutique or drug store and start a conversation without thinking the worst?  Would you dare start an unpopular conversation on a topic of ill-refute without judging the outcome of what someone may think of your opinions?

The day has arrived in your life where you are tired of simply existing and going through the motions.  You are ready, willing and able to really “LIVE.” It requires being daring enough to accept the pleasure of your own state of existence. Yes I said self-indulgent ‘ordinary’ pleasure.  The KIND you like.   You are not to seek validation or approval. Yu will do only those things that matter to you for no other reason except you want to.  If it feels good, do it.  If it feels real good, repeat it often. Cease trying to be reasonable, logical and most of all, acceptable.  IF you will, but be your ‘natural and convenient’ self, you need not worry with these trivial matters. Only those who are living a false superficial bombastic life are concerned with how they appear. The greatest joy and freedom you will ever experience is in the hour you liberate yourself from the binding ‘set of stupid obligations’ you have imposed. Do Only what makes you happy. {Thrills you to the gills} Why on earth would you do anything else?

Speak whatever words come to you without filtering. Eliminate pretense. Dress without thought of the other. Style your hair how you feel THAT day, if you care to. Laugh loud, hard and often. Sing.  Write songs. Write stories. Dance. Develop a play. Paint. Draw. Sculpt. Build something. Read. Join an unpopular cause. Choose the opposite of what you normally eat. Quit the job you despise. Do work that inspires you! Take your shoes off. Walk barefoot. Have plenty of erotically soul fulfilling deeply arousing pleasure loaded satisfying sex! Be “ORDINARY”!!! Embrace and enjoy the sensational expereince of being human; it’s what we’re here on Earth to do.