Love : do it different

Me

Love was what I felt for a sweet candy or two , when I was 3.It lasted as long as the candy did.

Love,fortunately took a massive leap from what I felt for an object,to an actual living pup!I must be 7 I guess.Well,the stray puppy I found,I loved and cared for,eventually grew up and big into a huge dog.By the time I could understand the very much talked about ‘loyalty’ that dogs show,he passed away.I got over it  though.

Love sang to me the musical notes,mostly falsetto,when I was 12.Those pretty ocean blue eyes and oh! that smile of my Irish boy-band crush!Well,I declared I was in love .Atleast that’s what I thought.I surely learnt multitasking mentally  pretending to pay attention to the math class and singing love songs in my head.I wish this would be it,and love would  be the same ‘candy-puppy love’ still.

Love became complicated when I was 16 and ‘fell’ not for a candy, or puppy,or a TV guy,but an actual real -life person.Love became all what it wasn’t meant to be-crazy,sad,bad.So,one day,when everything was said and done,and I couldn’t take it anymore,I unknowingly surrendered my problems to God.And I bet He listened!

Now,love for me is God.

What my leaders say

They say,all of these expressions of love that we around everyday,are incomplete,without the reinforcement of God’s love.It is restoring!Divorces,heartbreaks,love failure,broken families,I could go on and on about fading love .All of this is bound to happen if the centre of every relationship is not God,but people.

They say, if you ever wanna experience the best kinda love of all time,you find it ‘on your knees’.This one’s a pun,but you know what I wanna say !You find it everytime you close your eyes and say”father,here I am,your beloved child”And He says”Son/daughter I love you so much so that I gave my only begotten son Jesus,to die for your sins ,so that you may be forgiven if you believe in him,and have an eternal life”

What Jesus did

Jesus loved sinners.I’d rather say people like us.He loved his enemies.Not that he had any,just assuming they were people who crucified him.He loved his disciples.He loved his family.He loved equally.Above all, he loved his Heavenly Father,so much so that he willingly gave away his life to fulfill his Father’s plan for us humans.Now this ,is the highest expression of love I believe.Out of love,he gave his life for me,for you too.So much more than we asked for.

Do’s

Love God first.

Love people. (enemies included)

Don’ts

Ignore all that’s written here.You know it in your heart it’s true.

Blame me if your enemies get mad after seeing this change into expression of love for them.They’ll be puzzled.Trust me on this one.

Ingredients

Love the Lord your God with all your heart,soul and might.

Do it different

Everyone can live the ordinary life loving people and jobs and things first.Be among the ones who love God first.See the change for yourself.Try it out.Do it different.

Look, it’s happened once again
It happens ev’ry now and then
Feeling the hurt and hatin’ all the men
Ready to stop it all

Points of view
We’ve been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn’t really matter if they’re never quite the same
We have our rules in different ways, 
We play the games of different folks with different strokes
And keep our points of view

In the present times, people (very rarely) deserve them. If you are too compassionate and concerned to others pain, chance is, you may end up hurting yourself. Times have changed and so have people’s mindset. The one deserving of kindness will not plead you and the one you offer to be kind to, doesn’t deserve it. It is next to impossible to find the one who is true not just on the outside but also within. Know what is right and what is not and the satisfaction you get relieves your doubt.

Necessarily we need to learn to differentiate people. And donot worry to stand out even if you are standing there alone. Definitely one can never make everyone happy. Try doing it for yourself. Those who understand you will support you anyway and the one’s who are against, time will guide them. 

We all have a purpose in life, find it and live it. Every step, every action, every decision leads to a better tomorrow. Make a different pathway and let others join you. Dare to be different if you dream to be. 

“It is you who can make yourself what you desire to be, tomorrow.”

True success is when you are what you wanted to be. Believe in yourself and there is nothing that can postpone your success. Realise your passion, follow you dreams, be confident and the world will be yours.

I’ve noticed that the childrens programming I had as a kid, is not what is on television now. I mean, yes, I know that programming changes, shows get cancelled and so on, but seriously, what happened to the quality of television now a days? I feel that it isn’t even close to as good as it used to be.

I have also realized that drama follows people through life. It doesn’t end once high school is over, like everyone says… It hit me a while ago in college, some people never grow up, no matter how old they may be. Drama will always be there; Its all about how you squash it from escalating. If you feed into it, of course it will continue; However, if you show people that you could really care less about the crap they are about to start with you, they will usually move on to some other soul and see if they can be beat down. I have noticed that it is also similar to how the real world works. The real world hands you challenges and it is a test to see how you deal. I myself, can admit, I am not always the strongest when it comes to challenges, and I have discovered how much I dislike change in my routine and in how things work; However, changes in life are supposed to happen. Why? I dont think anyone will know that one.

I am also guilty of over thinking things and being very analytical in situations. Things that I shouldnt worry about, I do worry about, and things I should worry about, I worry about times ten. Haha. I have also discovered that I am unable to stand around in work situations. I must be given something to do at all times because standing around makes me feel lazy; even when all work is completed and there is time left over. I feel like I need to clean something or organize something, or refill empty containers. People ask me if I have anxiety, and honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if I was diagnosed with it eventually. I worry about what everyone thinks of me, my work ethic and quality of my work, and staying on people’s good sides.

I learned that having two college degrees does not mean you’ll get a job right away. In fact, I still haven’t gotten a job for either degree, although writing does not require being hired anywhere, so that is the beauty of that. I have enjoyed it my entire life since I learned how to write, and used to fill up numerous composition books with stories and poetry as a kid. So I guess I have always been a writer. I’ve always had a career in that. However, its not paying the bills of course, and college loans are pricy. I’ve been paying for those with two unrelated jobs, as well as cell phone and credit card bills, and being near my 26th birthday, life is going to get slightly more challenging with losing insurance and having to get my own, as well as making the car payments for my first car. Yes its true, I did not get my license till I was 22 (permit at age 20) because I was afraid of driving until that point. But I enjoy it very much now that I’ve had a license for 4 years, because its nice to not have to ask people to give you a ride, and once you gain confidence and lose fear of accidents and traffic around you in general, its not so bad. Its actually quite amazing.

Lucky for me, my love life has at least made sense finally. I have someone who truly values me for how hard I work, what I put forth to the relationship, and the fact that I have found the ability to keep trucking even when times are hard on me. A lot of past relationships did not go so well. I was given up on, cheated on, and told that I was stupid and a failure. All things that made me actually start to believe I’d never have anything for a second there. Yes, life has been a challenge for me. Nothing has come easily, but if I couldn’t make it through, I wouldn’t be here. I’d either not exist, or would have surely ended myself by now. Something keeps me trying harder and searching for something that seems so far away, yet it feels like its nearby and I just can’t locate it at the same time.

Who knows really? I’m just glad I am making it in the economy we have now. For example, its a lot harder to survive when you are making minimum at one job, and just over it at the other, and gas prices are $3.99 a gallon. I remember when I was a kid, they were under $1.00 a gallon! Makes it very hard when your car needs gas and you are paying bills and working hard for any money you can get. I just always want more, and perhaps sometimes, I need to learn when to quit wanting more and relax for a bit. I feel trapped in my constant worry and concern about doing things on time and right and impressing others that I don’t make enough time to do anything for me. Whenever I do, its very miniscule time off. I always feel like I need to be working and that I am wrong for taking time off because that is money I could make, however at the same time, I know everyone needs a break because without breaks, life gets very stressful and any break I do get is near the end of the week and I know that I need that for a few different reasons: I’m never home anymore, my boyfriend is home on weekends from his job so thats the only time I can see him (not to mention its always amazing to see him becaus of how long we spend being apart), and my friends get time with me too. I need the time I get little of. Without it, I’d go crazy.

With this said, I bid all adeu; more to come as I get older. Almost 26 now, I have to say here’s to another 26 prosperous, educational, happy, hopefully children filled, married, loving, hard working, respected, talented, years.

1. I trade the stock market with astrology. Most would percieve this as WRONG, SILLY, STUPID, and laugh at this. Many great traders use timing methods to time the market.

2. Iran has nuclear weapons. Oh wait no they can’t. Well why not? Because you are a threat and America says you are not allowed to. Hmm America is allowed to and Europe and UK most probably have nukes too but Iran can’t. “terrorist threat” my bum.

3.  I am a guy and i do not masturbate. Eww what is wrong with you bro are you nuts, you gotta go enjoy life and go watch porn man…. (porn can be quite an addiction to males mostly and can deteriorate many aspects of life. just saying. But still come on porn… )(just saying.. none of this relates to me )

4. I am a guy but i like barbie dolls. I have to say even my brain says this is WRONG, but is it really? To have different taste in likes and not-likes from the majority is “wrong”? if you think about it, it isn’t wrong much.

5. “So Rachel, what kind of music do you like?” “I like Post-Hardcore, Grunge, and Death Metal. Power metal too, how about you Michelle? Michelle? Where did she go?

6. Instead of reading a newspaper in the bathroom, I bring a calculator. The Association of Male Proper Behaviour Institute Worldwide straight away banned him from being a member.

7. I like to sleep early at 6 pm. What man? come on.. .thats too early 5 am sounds a better idea trust me.

8. “Come on dude, lets get wasted here, and maybe after that we can $%^#$%^”. “I don’t think that’s a good idea, ill pass up on the drinks, and the #$%^&&^%$”. “Dude your weird get out of my sight”.

9. I like small tits. “oh really dude, u can’t like …..”. big is good small bad… big=good. small bad. remmeber that  kay?

10. I like to think everything different is bad and wrong if they dont think alike to me, and i am always RIGHT!

TRUE!!

note: sarcasm is hinted in a lot of posts, and i DO NOT do any of these things posted. These are just out of the blue and i decided to write about it!hehe :p

Take care everyone!

Hamish Gaejam is 28 years old. He thinks that falling in love is all about the chemistry. He shares everything with her sweetie. He often leaves handwritten love notes for her. His friends say that he would walk a thousand miles just to see her. He tends to be relaxed and sleep well when falling in love. Every time he falls in love, it feels like the first time. This is exciting and exhilarating.  When he thinks of love, he thinks that it is a feeling of happy satisfaction and enjoyment.

According to a survey conducted Huffington Post (via an online survey services provider SocialSci and Mechanical Turk), against 230 adult respondents in the United States, women and men have different priorities in the development itself. Respondents answered questions about the custom of making resolutions, including resolutions they made in the past. This survey shows what kind of resolution are the priorities of women and men.

* Exercise: 78 percent of women, men 70 percent.
* Life is more regularly: 74 percent women, 66 percent male.
* More patient: 73 percent of women and men have this resolution.
* Work harder: men 73 percent, 67 percent of women.
* More to enjoy life: 69 percent of women, men 64 percent.
* Stop smoking: 63 percent male, 53 percent of women.
* Spend more time with your spouse: 61 percent of women, men 60 percent.
* Spend time with friends: 61 percent of women choose it, while only 49 percent of men who make New Year’s resolution.
* Stop drinking alcohol: 60 percent male, 14 percent of women.
* Spend more time with your children often: 59 percent of mothers, fathers 57 per cent.
* Lose weight: 57 percent of women, men 54 percent.

This survey also shows more women than men often make resolutions. As many as 63 percent of female respondents admitted they made a resolution every year, while only 50 percent of men who do the same. Women also tend to be more open, to let resolutions that they made to others. While 93 percent of male respondents said the resolution is personal and only for yourself not to be disclosed to others.

What about you, if your resolution and your spouse, boyfriend, sister or brother men, different in terms of priority is also the custom of making resolutions?

Do they say that you demonstrate your cooperativeness on many occasions?
Do they say that sometimes you do not help others or do what they ask?
Do they say that you are always ready to fight?
Do they say that sometimes you do not show regard for others in manners, speech, behavior?
Do they say that you sometimes do not support a particular person or a belief?
Do they say that you are always  respectful and considerate of other people?
Do they say that you are always able to make decisions quickly and effectively?
Do they say that sometimes you show a feeling of hostility?
Do they say that you often have firmness of purpose?
Do they say that you sometimes show a very deep unfriendly feeling?
Do they say that you show intense enjoyment and interest?
Do they say that you sometimes do not show much emotion or interest ?
Do they say that you sometimes are indecisive, unsure?
Do  they say that you always do what is necessary?
Do they say that you always do what is convenient?
Do they say that you sometimes are indifferent?
Do they sometimes say that you are open, communicative, talkative, effusive?
Do they say that  sometimes you are extremely reserved?

Yahsarah Hebyalifsarpri is 23 years old. She does not  believe in the concept of soulmates. She thinks that love at first sight does not happen. She believes that it is impossible to love someone unconditionally. It takes her a while to show enthusiasm, affection, kindness to someone she is dating. She has had a wide range of love experiences. She believes in love, but she knows it does not come easily. She speaks about “love at first sight” and “soulmates” in a scornfully derisive way.

Zandra Heldefmansan is 22 years old. She needs her space in a relationship. She things that in a relationship it is unhealthy to spend every night together. There are some things she really enjoys about being single. She often feels trapped and oppressed in relationships. She has had only one relationship. She still has a lot to learn, and a lot to try! She does not need to be in love, and sometimes she does not even want love. She says that having her own life is very important for her.

Wanda Wenslanoreasger is 30 years old. She has had at least two boyfriends. She has dated someone for over a year. Unfortunately she has had her heart broken. Also she has broken someone’s heart. It’s hard for her to imagine being with one person at time. She has loved, lost, and loved again. She has had a wide range of love experiences. It is hard for her to stay devoted for too long. All her relationships have been very similar.

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