In 2008, at the age of fifty five, I suffered from heart failure. During treatment I had loads of spare time to think about all the questions I had asked throughout my life about what life really is and what reality actually consists of.

Having spent many years in the corporate world as an accountant I had often felt trapped in a life that was fraught with evils of many kinds, like the world economy, wars, the monopolising of food and basic life resources, media giants controlling us all, etc. I had also become poor because I had to sell almost everything I owned, including my five guitars, a drum kit, a great PA system, a recording system, and much more, to pay for the treatment of my heart condition and to feed and house my family.

Over this time of introspection I explored various cultural, theological and societal beliefs and practices, and I did a basic study of Quantum Physics, which awoke me to the truth of what matter really is. All matter is simply energy, which is basically a construct of atoms and subatomic particles; and all that is between any atom’s neutron and electrons is space, which also exists between each atom. More space than anything else. In fact, if the Big Bang singularity were to occur in reverse, as in an implosion, the entire universe would be reduced to the size of a single baseball. This fact blew me away; WOW.

I also studied a number of philosopher’s writings and found a renewed passion for poetry. One verse quoted from William Blake’s poem ‘Auguries of Innocence’ explains my thoughts:

To see a world in a grain of sand,

And a heaven in a wild flower,

Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,

And eternity in an hour.

A robin redbreast in a cage

Puts all heaven in a rage.

My basic study of REIKI struck me deeply and I started learning all I could about this wonderful belief and practice which was rediscovered and re-activated by Mikao Usui. This is The Divine Universal Life giving energy. And energy is atoms. There-from I deduced that everything and everyone on Earth, in the Universe in fact, are made of exactly the same basic compound – atoms. This resulted in my belief in there being ONE Life, based on ONE Creation, created from the ONE Energy.

From my thinking and studying I consequently also discovered that we, mankind, my own and/or our forefathers and kin, have committed many crimes and wrongs against ourselves, mother earth, mother nature, our environment, and all elements in the Universe; all in humankind’s selfish quest for power, wealth and luxury. I ascertained that certain world leaders of certain countries have committed the terrible crime of breaching mankind’s basic human rights to life, by warring against, colonizing, and controlling the weaker and lesser armed nations to claim their wealth, gold, resources, etc. And to think that some of these nations who’d been abused are/were the most peaceful nations on Earth. And their cultural rights were breached by wrongfully instituting the Western lifestyle and religion; by force.

As a result, I wrote the E-book ONE Life-Love-Energy plus many follow-up articles, and started the foundation. Thus the cause ‘Save Planet Earth – ONE Life – ONE Energy’ on Face-book and various other sites I created on the Internet to raise awareness, raise funds and do what we members can do to heal the planet and life on it.

Growing freedom and a far greater capacity to love have materialized within me over the past three years as I have understood many truths and became totally non materialistic. And a great deal of love, patience and compassion has filled my heart for those who really suffer from the actions of those who control the world order; now called the New World Order; which has been in action for centuries, if not for millenniums.

I have never felt freer, living each day for itself, to heal, love, and empower people with the great Universal Life Force Energy channelling through me. This life feels so right, so good, and it fulfills my heart’s longing to love and heal.

The book  is available here: ONE Life-Love-Energy- By Vaughan Jones

Blessings in love and abundance to everyone and to all life.

Vaughan Jones. All for ONE – ONE for All

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The ‘Third eye’ is a mystical and esoteric concept. Some believe that it leads one to the inner realms and spaces of higher consciousness. In Hinduism and Buddhism, the third eye is a symbol of enlightenment. They refer to it as eye of knowledge. Hindus believe that the opening of Shiva’s third eye causes the eventual destruction of the physical universe.

According to Western Wisdom Teachings, location of the third eye is in the pituitary body and the pineal gland.

H. P. Blavatsky and Rick Strassman had suggested that the third eye is in fact the partially dormant pineal gland.

Pineal gland is located between the two hemispheres of the brain. The pineal gland secretes Dimethyltryptamine (DMT), which induces dreams, near-death experiences, meditation, or hallucinations.

When Dimethyltryptamine enters the brain, it interferes with the normally occurring neurotransmitter (it is a neurochemical that transmits nerve impulses across a synapse) called serotonin, which serves many functions in the brain from regulating moods, memory, processing, sleep and cognition. DMT is also known to induce dreams, near-death experiences, meditation, or hallucinations.

According to David Porush in Omni magazine, serotonin plays a role in how people sense reality.

One of the serotonin pathways connects to the frontal cortex. Impulses originating from Hippocampus on reaching the frontal cortex produce a kind of light-emitting reaction also known as chemiluminescence. It is also termed as bioluminescent reactions.

The bioluminescent reaction is the ‘third eye’ one sees during enlightenment.

Administration of DMT also can produce similar mystical and esoteric experiences. Pure DMT is relatively rare on the illegal drug market. However, a new generation of hallucinogens has been created that can be taken in tablet form. Two of these, “foxy” or “foxy methoxy” and AMT, mimic the actions of DMT.

Many false sages and yogis also turn drug abuser to experience visual hallucinations. They may feel detached from themselves. They might even have an “out of body” experience. Moreover, serotonin affects reasoning. DMT may cause an abuser to think that he or she is having a moment of religious ecstasy, or is having a communion with the divine. Some users have had the feeling of being in the presence of God. Some yogis tie it to certain religious practices.

I had actually seen the ‘third eye’ while communicating with the unknown entity during my experiments with blackmasking. Please read all about it in my article, “My Tryst with Satan in Guise of God”.

It was not a normal eye; but it was in a semblance of an eye. It was as large as my forehead. Shaped as an eye it was devoid of cornea and the pupil. It was just the white of the eye. I usually saw it at the time I was about to fall off to sleep. Very often, something used to awaken me rudely, with vision of lightening, and sounds of thunder. Sometimes I heard sounds as if lion is roaring. I could see the third eye with my eyes opened or closed. It used to remain there for some time and then simply fade away.

I never met anyone who ever had a same experience. However, I am sure what I saw indeed was a third eye.  

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When a person attains a certain level of cosmic insight without properly realizing the how, when, where, or for what purpose of that ‘supposed arrival’, he is actually in a state of more confusion than before having ventured down the self-realized path. The questions have not lessened but increased. Without his being able to fully adequately explain the precarious position, for awhile, he experiences more isolation, trepidation and defense. At this point, he’s incapable of describing the intricately involved personal exhausting experience of having been set free. In the deepest layers of his gut, he instinctively knows but can’t say; much less even begin to explain why.  The more he tries to live up to the expectations of his new found joy, the further he plummets into self-abased agony. When this inexplicable sublime rain falls upon his barren head, he has become a fully conscious human being. When he no longer differentiates between what is good and what is bad, the ultimate release has begun from mortality to immortality.

Before this inexpressible silent state is revealed, we are all far too judgmental, obstinate, rebellious and morose. To be so dull and frozen, in such a catatonic place, whereby you can hardly stand the inconsistencies within yourself brings with it an avalanche of inestimable burdens and worries. You say one thing and then you turn right around and do another. You live a lie by expecting others “to do as I say, not as I do.” When the release finally arrives, you vomit up the sickness of superiority and sense of importance you’ve maintained. The need to tell someone else what has taken place is a clear indication that you have not yet arrived. The desire to ‘save’ another or to ‘point the way’ is also the red flag of scrounging in the pit.

The need to convince others of your supposed elevation definitely declares you are merely fooling yourself with grandiose ideas. There is conclusive evidence of this ineffable state, however; when one is surrounded by an ever-present sensation, which can only be uttered as an unrelenting question: “Has it happened yet?” Have I released my need to know, govern, expect, demand or influence others? Have I removed myself and my projected opinions, comments and interpretations from the way others want to experience their personal lives? Can I be in their presence and not feel the need to direct, comment or persuade them according to my standards?  You are never afforded the privilege to know what is supposed to happen or how or when or why something occurs in another’s life. It is incomprehensible to interfere in the will of others. You simply recognize the same effervescent force of an all-pervading energy guiding the other person while you stand ignorantly/silently in respect.

You simply watch the fickle movements of your own unpredictable actions and abide patiently until a complete surrender occurs voluntarily within. There is no way to name the one influencing element which brings you unwarranted peace. Except to affably tune-in to what’s happening on the most primal of levels within your most base sexual nature.  The commotion stirred is inconceivable to you. You will hear words of such astounding ecstasy that have up until this point been unutterable. The transcendent erotic sense of urgency that surrounds you will be such that when you turn in a flickering of an instant to capture its overwhelming beauty/ grace in pleasure, it will have already vanished.

  Even the most intimate of partners cannot share the enormity of this life altering miraculous sensation that never forsakes you. You have been shifted, as it would be to a place of sacred observance, watching people, places and events as if viewing a most humorous movie. If you are attentive, you will catch a glimpse of the divine in capricious motion by muttering, “Who are these people?”  Your seeded love and devotion have in no wise been altered; simply the perception of that vested love has changed gears.

MODE of Cosmic Therapy: Opposite Truth

Too much emphasis is being placed on outer circumstances. Happiness is a fleeting idea which cannot be maintained for any measurable length of time. Can you possibly understand the motivating factors behind any event? What label you would ascribe to the vicarious situation tainted and colored by and through personal motivation? There comes a time in your life when you must release any thought of fleeing from what you perceive as an unfortunate situation. Is it not written: “Resist not evil and it shall flee from thee?” You must come to terms with the actuality of the incident and deal with the experience squarely. You are being pushed into another level, a fresh new dimension, a greener pasture of yourself; but, oh how you do refuse to give i.

 You have prayed for this moment to occur for a long, long time. Though the circumstances do not necessarily reflect the outcome you had in mind, ‘it’ is no less the means by which you are releasing crusty, outdated, non useful, disinterested dreams, thoughts, and feelings. You have arrived at that ‘inward sphere of artistic expression’ and you are filled to capacity with enough courage, insight and fortitude to make the plunge. Leap over the dreaded abyss of unfamiliarity.  Nothing happens before it is time; IF you were not ready, the abyss would not have appeared.

Those unexpected or unexplained circumstances, people and situations bring with them the ‘Box of Goodies’ necessary and conducive to your unveiling. You are embarking on a brand new dimension (adventure) into yourself and though you may not even see or realize what that journey entails, you are on your way, right where you stand. Look no further than 5 feet away from you to the right. There lies the obvious clue. Something so inconspicuous you would have never even suspected its germinating force. However, in.through/before your personal jump, it stares at you. How could you have missed it? (Maybe, because you were asleep.)

Any attempt to evade it’s full-fledged merited implication would merely result in cheating; (I don’t like this ill defined word at all but for the moment I shall borrow its lame descriptive energy) cheating yourself out of the wonderful opportunity made available to honestly address your artistic needs and desires. You are ready; stop saying you’re not or you don’t understand it’s meaning. Ha! It is impossible to dodge the essence of the coincidental blaring episode.

Things are never what they seem to be;in fact, they are opposite from the way you envisioned. The more uncomfortable one feels, the more needful the incident. Life is filled to capacity with hard choices.  These inevitably lead one to a higher place of understanding. It is not necessarily the ‘thing’ in question as a end result but where it leads you in the process. Without the necessary pain (fear) associated [to purge one of the shackled blinders], you would remain fixed in your stale ideas of what is supposed to be and what is not. You would be more likely to continue to blame circumstances or another person for your apparent state of unresolved misery. No one causes you misery or despair or dissolution.

The consequences of your deliberated seeded actions or thoughts return to you primarily with more force without consideration. No amount of retaliation or vengeance can be wrought effectively without the conscious boomerang effect of the originator.   “Vengeance is mine,” saith the Lord. (Impressively recorded )   It is not only futile but stupid to try to settle the score with someone. The retribution and punishment will never satisfy/justify/rectify/gratify or eliminate but will merely contain the malice associated from the same level being offered.

 Life is continually and eternally fair in all its dealings, though, maybe not, according to the one accessing the exchange.  A needful and purposeful act of surrender is called forth. You must deliberately turn the other cheek and say with a full measure of grace that, “All is exactly as it is supposed to be for reasons I can’t see”.  No escape from, only into, oneself. That’s where paradise is virtually located.

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Take for example the letter: G and the Name Ginger

 G-The variegated letter which represents a humorous channel of inspired communication. It acts both as a repository portal and an all encompassing reservoir. It serves as a principal seat of conscientious memory which can exalt or denigrate depending upon how tightly one cleaves to contrived associations.  Consider the words: good, great, grand, gracious, gulf, gripe, gout, gain, get, gall, gamble, goat, garbage, gutsy, god.  When one encounters the words that begin with letter G, He/she ultimately will be transformed by/through present apparently unwarranted conditioned responses. IF your first name begins with the letter G your life will provide the means, circumstances, situations and somewhat bleak improvising opportunities to act as a relaying station for others. In other words, you will be called upon to listen to countless stories of woe! The letter G is highly charged and endowed with a high moral fiber, an impeccable integrity and a deeply imbued emotional nature. Those with the letter G, at the beginning of their names, will forge a path to perfection by multiple tests of inconsistency and variously flavorfully flawed trials that will push your personal endurance level and undeniable strength of character to the limit. You possess an unbeatable sense of endurance, fortitude, and saying power unsurpassed by others.

 I- The letter of the profound subdued Sage who demands and values silence/privacy above and beyond any other virtue. You have the ability to pierce through illusion/obstacles/barriers with a fine tuned precision of a laser beam. You are an intricately private ‘loner’ who fills the broad gap in others by providing solace, intimate counseling, insight, and a safe refuge. Intimacy you are able to project but not incorporate.   You are acutely aware of the fact woven into your incredibly complex nature a genuine need to serve as a ‘sounding board’ in order for others to connect and be understood.  Creative and sensitive, few people ever really penetrate into the depths of compassion and sacredness you possess.  Family is paramount; work/business is salvation. Nervous tendencies overwhelm you, at times, your become so worried and engulfed in the problems of others you use it (distraction) in search of a way to eliminate built up frustration, anxiety and needless concern.  Always striving to better than what you believe yourself to be, you never quite the make the mark of your own impeccable belief of needing to GOOD ENOUGH.  You search in vain for personal serenity but somehow exchange your needs for the supposed needs of others.

 N- The letter of intense will, focus, commitment and dedication to a worthwhile purpose.  Profoundly spiritual; views life with a distant eye and discriminating ears, listening for discrepancies and inconsistencies.  You possess a unique sense of wit which soothes the souls of many people. You are able to talk your way out of just about anything; Drugs, alcohol and/or food may prove to be your downfall.  Daily events will produce complicated scenarios in which “laughter at oneself” will prove to be life-sustaining and rewarding. Adjusting yourself to the eye of the storm as it passes over is immediate and indispensable. The amount of chaos involved will force you to find that serene place of stillness in the private sanctuary of your own mind.  Need to reduce sexual frustration!

G- (2nd) The letter when doubled become its opposite force. The mackerel like opposing force in tenuous emotions that at times drive you bonkers. When you are faced with having to grapple with conflicting ideas, concepts, and tangled-up situations/affairs which demand a constant balancing act of staying focused, grounded and centered in order to pace yourself, a deep split results. Peace and harmony evade you, even though you may be torn between the opposing poles, you are resolved with but incapable of voicing it. This paradoxical nature often leaves you with a feeling of detachment and frantic inner resolve.  Never are you let off the hook in order to relax or let down your ‘supposed’ guard but ever vigilant to the nuances of what’s going on around you.  You are impressionably aware of everything that takes place; nothing goes unnoticed.  Your mind never sleeps. Tension? o invented the word!

E- The letter of physical involvement in the human experience on the road of life, incorporating all of the overt and not so obvious lessons associated. No better schooling offered than the education obtained through the invaluable circumstances and troublesome events that are made available for your choosing on the personal path to self-liberation. Need to eliminate guilt, remorse, and regret accumulated along the way.  Remember: “Everything happens for Divine Reasons we can’t see.”   You know beyond a reasonable doubt that whatever is sown will just a surely will be reaped. You understand and value the effort and energy that goes into professional, long, tiring, focused, and devoted hours of ethical work practices accompanied by the endearing rewards they produce. The word SACRIFICE will take on a diverse complex direction as it gives you new multi-leveled meanings. “Be still: this too will pass.”

R- The letter which displays the brightness and brilliance of the sun’s loving warm rays and life-sustaining energy. But, remember wherever the sun shines too brightly, shadows are cast. Meaning: secrets produce sickness.  You possess a childlike innocence that never exhausts your innate goodness.  You are ready, willing, and able to give, nourish and serve others as the time and occasion arise. By shedding wisdom, encouragement and faith while shouldering an almost inconceivable personal private hell filled with insecurities/doubts/problems held in check while feeling alone and isolated has forged you into the trouper you are. At times, you have been so demanding of yourself, unforgiving, merciless and relentless in analyzing your actions to the point of mindless weariness.  You feel responsible for those in your care or charge. {Most especially those who comprise your immediate family and life long friends.} Learning how to truly love and accept yourself without hesitation and reservation will be the biggest battle of your life. 

Letters live, love and laugh.  Do you?

We are such utterly dissatisfied mealy mouthed individuals we spend hours polishing our faces, shining our cars, and planting flowers in our yards as a means to prove we are content. In actuality, all those contrived efforts do nothing but accent the emptiness we feel. We are superficial vehicles who work tirelessly to convince ourselves otherwise by engaging in conversations that validate, purport, or secure our sacredly held highly thought of positions? Instead of inventing meaningless shallow activities to fill spaces of restlessness, we need be asking what I am really seeking. What do I honestly need? Who am I, and more importantly, what am I doing on the planet Earth?

Nothing that we do really fulfills us. IF it did, we would not constantly create and fuel the ever increasing chaos which pervades our lives. We would support, hail and administer to others favorably without the hint of jealousy, animosity or envy which rides piggy back on the subtle statements we make when conversing with them. Most especially IF they apparently have been granted more success than we think they should have entertained for the amount of effort put forth. In other words, we constantly judge, measure, criticize, condemn and comment on every achievement received in the other person’s life (who we are involved with) without relent.

What is so ironic is the morose fact that we say we care about these people. Ha! Care how? When we continue to bad mouth, belittle, gossip and bemoan the successes attained by them IF we have not seen the same measure in our own lives. Why? Because we are not living the life we truly want to aspire and commit our talents. We are hiding behind the mask of superiority, morality or an arbitrarily sanctioned ‘goodness.’ It makes us sick to the bones but we continue to maintain the ‘status’ quo/numbed relationship. We have an image to uphold, remember? But, for one minute IF we could but let go, lighten up, release that pre-supposed (do or die) ‘label’ of who we think we are and who we are trying to convince others we are for the real passionate life of sexual vitality and creative fun we so crave, our lives would suddenly transform into magical scenes of transcendent bliss!

Interested in digging beneath the surface of superficial veneer? Let’s play a little esoteric MODE of Cosmic Therapy game. (Just for entertainment) It’s called the A Train. Board Up and Follow the Unknown Destination.

Out of this limited A word list: what is the first word that most appeals to you? Put a star beside that particular word. Then, afterwards, pick out three more words in sequential order of importance. After completing that task, pick the word that least appeals to you. Write it down, as well. You should by now have 5 words on your paper. (Leave space between the words) Write them down:

Ø Agreement, Acknowledgment, Appreciation, Adoration

Ø Acceptance, Acquisition, Accountability, Anticipation

Ø Avoidance, Authority, Authorship, Adeptness

Ø Assistance, Approval, Acclimate, Award

Ø Autocracy, Autograph, Audition, Argument

Ø Attainment, Attendance, Attraction, Assurance

Ø Attachment, Association, Assets, Assertion

Ø Aspiration, Apology, Ambition, Allowance

Ø Affair, Advice, Adjustment, Action

Ø Accomplishment, Ability, Accent, Awareness

Make note of this list (meaning from which lines you chose your particular words) for I shall add further insight later on in this article.

Without adding any further interpretation or elaboration on the words you have chosen, write down the first song that comes to your mind. Write down at least 6 words out of the song. Stop. And, say them aloud, with feeling. Have you actualized any of these words in your life? Now, send your attention and energy to your feet. Where, when, how, and in what position are your feet planted this moment? [Literally: do you have shoes on; if so, what color and style are they?] Your feet are the most reliable barometer of truth registering your degree of unprocessed issues possess.

You can see nothing beyond the current relationship you maintain with the condition of your feet. How do they feel? What do they look like? The clear cut truth of your entire life is revealed through the state of your feet. Sound ridiculous? It’s far from it. Your feet know things you’ll never be aware. They are able to take each and every encounter unmonitored. They will stand in the midst of any whirlwind that spins about you. They will take you to the specific places you need to be. They will halt in circumstances your soul wants to experience. Never doubt the position of your feet! Be still in whatever circumstance you find yourself in and accept the realization of the sublime unfolding itself. The feet will move without recommendation, approval or consent from you. Trust them. They KNOW where, how, when, why, who and for what purpose they move.

Your soul demands raw unexpressed experimental recognition and through the experience of that “yet to be ventured into” event ‘feet placement’ realization – you actualize liberty. Is that a self-centered self absorbed, self interested quest? Absolutely! Is it genuinely unobtrusively daringly expressively viably the depth and breath of sensual longing in which your soul’s quest for birth was created. Because you are totally incapable of processing the multitude of emotional episodes that occur in the run of a day, your feet absorb the edge of intensity off of them for you so that you are able to carry on.

The visible unbarred evidence of the capitulation of the day’s events are absorbed through your feet and replayed in signs, symbols and pictures at night in dreams. These confrontations are food (feast) for the soul. When one is deprived of these encounters, the soul withers and dies. To deny the soul of these awkward and nameless situations (those ones that leave you confused, bewildered and apparently self denigrating) stifles, cripples and stunts the soul’s expression. You need and WANT these turbulent events though you lie by trying to color them. Especially the ones that involve morality and sexual encounters!

You ask for the soul to show itself and then when it does you question the messenger and the message. It arrives via disguised in unrest and ambivalence; that’s the real reason you are so miserable but you don’t understand the play or the player. . When discord, sexual ambivalence, infidelity issues, disdain and disagreement, trouble and malady, sickness and an outright rigorous display of egotistic attitude shows itself, don’t be fooled. This is the Earth experience your soul so craves as uncultivated soil to be toiled. THIS IS THAT opportunity of Divine growth and exaltation. To work to cover it up or expel it is False!

Ask yourself: did the relationship, conversation or confrontation occur naturally without being forced or staged, if so, the soul was responsible! No amount of prayerful preparation can offset, delay or postpone or color the soul’s invitation to experience. To erroneously think that you can overcome the soul’s intent by sheer will power is surely to evoke more of its disguised sexual purity in gut wrenching situations. The same goes for all of your lustful encounters. If at ANY time it is forced, full of unnatural effort, felt as a chore or obligation or duty or strain you are nullifying its affect. Spontaneous passion is real and necessary.

You can not nor will you ever see realization or enlightenment happen (occur) by order or on demand. It comes like a thief in the night when you least expect it. When you thoroughly believe you are a million miles away from it. If you can recognize the scene or anticipate its appearance you have missed it. When you think you see it; it is not present! You must continually feed yourself on unexplained (most often, painful unexplained, supposedly guilt ridden, remorseful situations/experiences)

No one can do it for you. The assimilation process of soul food [tempting sexual liaisons] takes place in the individual alone. You (each person) must devour his/her own precarious food in totally unprepared/unexpected ways.

In the beginning of the article you took a test. Now we shall disclose some pertinent information regarding masquerading motivations.

There were ten precise categories from which you were able to select words. Each category means something relevant to your sensual/sexual artistic state of mind and body.

From 1 through 10 there were 4 A words to choose from. Let us first dissect the categories. If you chose any word from the category:

1. You are unduly restless, bored, agitated and disgruntled with your present physical shape. Attraction means everything. Stop talking about it and do something productive. Business success is directly linked to how you feel about your state of health. You don’t do very well acting as if it’s alright with you. It’s not!

2. You are secretly carrying on an affair either viably or actively in mind. Sexual activity will lead you to the real artistic talent you need to express. Eliminate guilt.

3. You are smothering the person whom you are involved with. You are whining, complaining and nagging far too much. Ever heard of the word ‘bitch’?

4. You are ready to leave and/or have already packed your bags. The situation is unbearable and you know it. Stop lying to yourself. It’s not personal. Space?

5. Now is the time to divert your energy in school, studying, reading or travel. Curb your appetite for drugs, food and alcohol so that you can find authentic pleasure.

6. You are ready for a different kind of commitment, marriage or your desperately need to express your genuine desire for a home, roots and stable relationship of communicative satisfying relevance.

7. You are separated from your true definitive sexual nature. Come to terms with the excellent erotic passion you possess. You’re gonna do what? Conceal nothing!

8. Trying to hard to control the outcome; let it be. Need to relax. Excessive worry/doubt is causing you not to be able to sleep which fuels unresolved anger.

9. Get your mind off of financial affairs. So what it the relationship/deal/score doesn’t turn out the way you plan? Another one is just around the corner. You’re far too suspicious and resentful. Get out of the past.

10. Turn the tables over. You are being so fake in your relationship and interactions. Stop the incessant mockery. You can’t stand the shit, why are you pretending like you do?

Next for the 5 words in sequential order. the number one word with the star which appealed to you the most:

#1 Embodies your mother and the current relationship you have/had with her. (Spatial influence)

#2 Represents your business/job/ profession/career.

#3 Characterizes your partner/mate/lover/wife/husband (think about that!)

#4 Determines Unresolved Issues with Father/father figure

#5 Indicates Most cherished goal/idea of success or cherished unfulfilled dream.

Remember: It’s just a MODE of Cosmic Therapy Esoteric Game;
“Don’t Mean a Thing if it Aint Got That Swing!” The song I chose, incidentally.

 But, be that as it may, your dream’s sole purpose is to bother you at levels so deep, that no amount of ease can be experienced until the source of the irritation is resolved.  Whether you choose to believe your dreams either in comfort or alarm, the obvious truth remains: Your dreams are speaking to you in an abrupt subtle way to ‘rattle your cage.’  Unless you are moved by the dream, you are, relatively speaking, pretending to show up for your life. You are faking it and not doing too well convincing yourself of your cleverly crafted deception.

Because you are so accustomed to lying to yourself, pacifying your pitiful existence, demeaning those who would point fingers at your self-created misery, you are incapable of seeing the yellow brick road which stands right before your eyes. You don’t want to see any other avenue to be explored. It seems too dangerous and uncertain.  You are so concretely mobilized in a routine robotically induced fashion of existing, you are afraid to venture into areas of the unknown region of yourself.  But, honestly, how long can you hold out?  How much longer can you drag yourself into places with a plastered smile sealed on your face?  You know you have reached that place of no return but you keep repeating and repeating and repeating the same old boring methods of interacting.

The change of seasons is upon you. (It’s high time to turn your attention inward and check the temperature for proper attire and event.)  Your sexual thermostat malfunctioned months ago and you haven’t sent for the repairmen. If you think for one instant that your dreams are not completely sexual in nature, you are worse off than I thought. Every censored volatile fearful unexpressed emotional sexual sensation will be terminated in the day time conscious activity and registered for the night time unconscious processing/filtering. The deal will be sent upstairs to the big boss for further evaluation, tabulation and regurgitation.

Depending upon how much you are not dealing with in your everyday existence, the lines of demarcation in dreams will be blurred, obscured and deferred. In other words, you are the culprit who is hiding the truth from yourself.  (No one, other than yourself, is betraying you or derailing your efforts or intent.) You are the master subterfuge whose disguise is tremendously unreliable. What are you gong to do about your inability to accept your own smoke screen? Are you the least bit interested in tapping into the subconscious level of your dreams of clarification of your hidden artistic talent? Oh! Did I neglect to mention that along with buttressing your complicated thwarted aims in your dreams, you were also covering up incredible latent talent?

Sexual impetus is creative talent, period. You can not hide it forever. You must come clean with yourself in such a way that at first is frightening and awkward. All dreams mean something! Every aspect in the dream elucidates major themes undigested.  All dreams reveal conflict as its most base level. Do not be quick to condemn or elevate a status of a particular dream until you have spent time with the underlying energy pervading your waking hours because of it. Dreams can only be interpreted and processed through the emotional state, not through the eyes, ears, tastes sieved in rational methods. You are required to step beyond your ‘grip it or die’ attitude and allow a non-scenically approach to pervade you. In other words, you can not look directly at the dream for answers. You must look without conditioned familiar eyes.

Can you explain orgasm? Can you speak the words to describe it when it occurs or do you simply give way to the pleasure involved? This is the same approach needed for proper deciphering of dreams. And, in the very same vein when you try to achieve orgasm, it interferes with the occurrence, right? So you must stop trying so hard to interpret your dreams through known left over antics. Sexual instincts are often so ambiguously masked that to unravel a dream’s meaning with any hint of morality attached would surely distort the contents of the dream.  Stay with this erotic thought until it seeps into your protective moralistic being!

Names take on superior significance in dreams. Numbers play a vitalized role, as well. Sexual feelings are produced in waves of vibrations that are easily associated with names, symbols and numbers. This is the point where esotericism plays a major function. But, if you are not fluid in such matters, your ability to sensationally decode the meanings of your dreams will be somewhat limited and distorted. Surely, however, you can relate to birth dates, simple universal symbols, ages and especially to names!

(Making a huge leap here) Regardless of how you feel about Freud, (interpretative father of the hidden psychology in dreams) he was somewhere in the ballpark when he concluded that dreams often reveal the deepest, darkest, most morosely misunderstood and grossly exaggerated sexual fantasies we wish to encounter/express. However, I will add that these slightly demised often distorted uninterrupted sexual stirrings have more to do with unexpressed talent than demonized lustful intent. Talent demands demonstrable extension, and will manipulate any given circumstance to expand its prodigious boundaries. Be not fooled, however, there are many levels of manipulation, envy, egoism, jealousy, deprivation, exploitation, and authoritative control at work in all humans every minute. Unwarranted Unexpected Unexplained Ignited Sexual detonation (camouflaged talent) seizes every opportunity to exploit, master, utilize, experience and languish in each savory episode!

When human beings do not activate their innate lavishly endowed talent, (hidden beneath sexual inactivity or suppressed secret erotic desire) through creative outlets of/in obvious uncertain (somewhat dangerous) endeavors, they are more apt to conduct themselves in/on primal life sustaining levels. In other words, human beings resort to archaic boring mundane demonstrative activity seeking more security/ prestige /authority of some sort. It’s really rather pathetic to be so noticeably phony.

Dreams will reflect these unresolved issues of blatantly discontented emotional static fusion.  Dreams reveal untapped body wisdom available for processing. Dreams are not filled with flippant irresponsible messages unnecessarily. They are as relevant as the air you breathe each moment. Becoming fluently adept in deciphering dreams will take interest, effort and inclination to discover your latent sexually motivated talent. It’s more than worth the marvelous esoteric study involved.  

Understanding, appreciating, reciprocating, and demonstrating authentic sexuality produces a life worth experiencing while inhabiting the earth plane. What’s your talent (unexpressed sexual desire) that you’re trying so hard to deny/mask?

So, you want to know IF you are making any progress in your life.  That depends on how you define the word, progress if you are able gauge its apparent development, you are ahead of it (in order to see it) and therefore not making any. IF you are not able to gauge any significant change, you are behind it, and progress, as you define it, has not yet occurred. In other words, your measuring device is altered and faulty due to the position and involvement of your being in the observant picture. Your particular position is always unknown due to the fact of the present unstable movement being determined. In any elementary physics class, you would automatically be instructed to apply the law of relativity. In order to measure anything accurately, you would have to be in a position outside of and uninvolved with that which was being observed. {Depends where you are and what you are doing, along with the removal of your imperfect emotional input.} And, since it is IMPOSSIBLE to know how fast you are traveling and precisely where you are stationed at in the same time frame, progress is undeterminable. Now, don’t get yourself in an uproar prematurely.

Another kind of progress exists but you are not able to measure its movement, either. However, you are able to experience a certain rhythm or flow which is designated by the strength and vision of what we refer to as passionate “desire” within. Do not confuse this sacred desire with something of an excitable nature which has to be created or activated by some object on the outside. An impersonal unblemished course of ‘progress’ has been established and maintained in you which is no way connected to excitability or generated by results. [In fact, it is perfectly indifferent and totally impersonal.] It is fueled by a silent irrefutable force, untouchable propulsion, unable to be ignited or diminished. This unique unquenchable elusive desire was formed and constituted in you before you were born. It grew with you as you developed in the womb. No mortal hands have fashioned it, nor has human minds infiltrated the boundaries of it.

This so-called measurement of ‘progress’ was indelibly imprinted upon the fabric of your characterized make-up before you were conceived by your earthly parents.

Though no two individuals hold the same level of desire (progress), your specific destiny is governed by the potency of that singular elevated desire. Your uniquely toned vibrating fragrant essence buried in this mysterious desire is perfectly matched and calibrated to your life’s activities and involvements. Although, you will never be able to manage, elicit, control or render personally motivated results from this uniquely instilled ‘progress’ mechanism, you will see and benefit from clues (scents) along the way. These mysterious fragrant clues, however, will vanish; in mid air. should you try to exploit them for vainglorious reasons. All progress is established, governed and maintained from a celestial sphere of operation. Although a difficult and unlikely concept to grasp, Progress is deliberately calibrated for optimal pleasure and nothing else.

People oft’ times spend countless hours ’in senseless maneuvers to, ‘speed along the project’, ‘make something happen’ or ‘make something better’. Foolish. All attempts of this sort are not only futile but hopelessly stupid. Things occur in a pattern of haphazardly sequenced events according to a divine plan (structure). [You, or I, are not privy to the background information feeding the appointed slot for delegated occurrence and/or deliverance.] We, are however, allowed to partake of the event, while emotionally creating whatever scenario fits our fancy. In the meantime, every imaginable and conceivable reason, excuse, defense, proposition, story, idea, credit, blame along with a million other earthly constructed state of ego projected worrisome, anxious, and guilt-ridden affairs [in development] are devised for the situation., None actually are relevant or true to the event itself, whether praise worthy or fault finding but mortals still tend to cling to their emotional dramas tenaciously. Realizing this, will that deter, sway, influence, or stop desperately driven human beings to ease up {stop pushing so}? Unfortunately, no.

Human beings are insatiable in their quest for power, prestige, position, wealth, beauty, influence, fame, fortune and domination even if thy have to secure it through notoriety. At no time, do they simply reside in the moment for the moment’s sake. Every waking hour is geared to making ‘progress’, never one time stopping to ‘breathe in the sublimely sacred progressive second of indescribable glory’ that surrounds them. The rush to acquire, to ‘get ahead’ to make ‘something of oneself’ blinds and stifles the unfathomable pleasure evoked! Is it not written somewhere:”…Go thy way, eat thy bread with joy, and drink thy wine with a merry heart…?” Life is meant to be consumed as a delightful undaunted love affair, breathless, intense, and erotically enjoyed. Smooth and easy—- Not to be filled to overflowing with needless doubt, concern, worry, vexation and striving!

Why fret so, flooded by numerous apprehensions, most of them invented by an irritated, jealous, vengeful, (wanting or needing to prove your worth) competitive, guilty, egoistic, disappointed and compelling spirit of “trying to impress.” {Either yourself or someone else.} To what avail? What does it matter? Why are you doing what you’re doing? The first and only questions should always be: “Do I enjoy this?” “Does it bring me pleasure again, and again, and again?” IF not, better re-evaluate your motives! “…except ye as a little child ye will in no wise enter into the gates of (whatever heaven means to you).” It’s called being guileless, without a predetermined envy or need of a specified result. Children are innocent creatures who relish the passing bubbles with laughter, astonishment and amusement. In their case, they are the embodiment of the full meaning of “Progress.”

Am I advocating a life of lackadaisical indifference? IF it could be achieved, by all means! Unequivocally YES!!! But, more reasonably, let us all is content with the attainment of: “…whatever thy hands find to do, do with all thy might…” Do these works of pleasure with full passion, love, veneration, appreciation, honor of the duty attached, and of course 350% creatively sexually engaged. No other definition of progress can be witnessed or experienced.

What has happened is that while you were trying to be ‘something’, you became ‘something’ very boring and disinteresting.  Accept it. You are no longer any fun to be around. People who once loved to be in your company have slowly one by one drifted away. The worst thing about that is you have rationalized their leaving as something necessary and beneficial. Life is formulated and sustained by the relationships you engage in. Being truly involved with others indicates a fullness of heart, body and mind. It also requires of you to ‘belly laugh.’ Along the way, you have forgotten and devalued the significance of play. Walking barefoot, frolicking in the grass, playing ball, ‘making whoopee’ in the most bizarre places and inauspicious times, going to see a movie you currently deem inappropriate, laughing for no reason whatsoever without feeling the need to explain, hopping on a plane to head to an unknown forbidden destination. Something in you is missing. You’ve felt that ‘icy’ void for a long time. But, you’ve continued to deny its ‘red flag’. You are an artist. You always knew this funky truth about yourself but didn’t know how to express it much less defend the insoluble need it has created in you. You can no longer deny its impact. Jump into the flame that burns illogically from the bottom of your feet. You are headed to a specific destination called, “Hallmark Inn”. There you will meet and greet the person who ‘flicks your stick’. It ain’t nothing personal. It’s just something you must do in order to push past the barricade that prevents YOU from being YOU. What has age got to do with it?

This lightheartedness in no way jeopardizes your privacy or causes you to throw yourself away. No. You will not be ‘wasting time.’   In fact, unless you deliberately set about to include more ‘raucous’ people into your inner circle, you will inevitably turn to stone. It’s high time for you to act like a clown; dance among the stars. Grill out. Invite the most unlikely and unsuspecting folks. Do those things that seem to you to be so absurd. Surprise yourself. Do something totally out of character. Be silly. Act ridiculous. Make the others around you wonder what you’re up to. In the meantime, something miraculous may happen: you may learn to truly have fun in your otherwise boring life.

Being truly ordinary makes one dangerous. Who can control, dominate, manipulate or influence a person who does not care either way? A man who lives simply by and from his instantaneous responses based upon gut instincts and nothing else ascends to heights yet untold. One who cares not what others say or think of him or his actions, or what will or will not be done  to him, for him or with him shows forth such an authentic character that little can stop or inhibit his ‘kismet’ layered path.  One authentic man to be found among billions changes the course of destiny for himself/herself and others. What an honor it is to see this authenticity in action.   He will not be bribed nor coerced into doing something he does not want to do.  He can not be made to feel guilty over anything. You would only knock yourself out trying to cause him/her to feel remorse or regret but nothing will be altered in him. You will only exhaust yourself issuing all sorts of personal fireworks toward him for they will be of no value or interest.

Imposition is an absolute impossibility for he does not engage his time or energy in any endeavor that he does not feel natural and convenient.  He creates his own waves and when and if the water gets too high, he either swims along with the current with no frantic motion or inclination to save himself, or should he so decide, and to be so vested on that level of interaction, will let himself drown with the comforting knowledge accompanied by a quick gesture of ‘it has sure been fun’ wink of good-bye in the process. He knows without knowing how he knows that life is a series of unexpected non-related events that are sequentially patterned and habitually joined together to make an intravenous spectrum of varied experiences for his/her own personal use. He/she may tie his shoes on some days, but most days leaves the matter to resolve itself.  He is hardly aware of the fact that he has shoes on much less whether they need tying or not.  Ambition makes no abode with him, nor can the scent of power arouse any trickle of emotion.  Money can’t penetrate his consciousness for he realizes without recall that he possesses in fullness everything there is to be obtained.  He enjoys his life with little or no distraction except the improbable drama he ensues. Wow! To be so ordinary is the single most extraordinary life one could possible ever envision.

Would you possibly possess the audacity of gumption to become ‘ordinary’, too? Do you think you could let up on yourself and the incessant ulcer producing ideas of success you possess?  Can you for one minute allow yourself the liberated freedom to laugh out loud for no reason or cause? (Three times!)  Would you forget for a moment the actuality of fulfilling a role of who people think you are and what you are supposed to do with your life?  Will you unleash the hold you have so tightly on your ambitions and desires to succeed and get ahead?  {Ahead of what?} Can you forget the way you look, the car you drive, the house you live in? Could you mingle with any and everybody without a further evaluation of status and background? Can you spontaneously walk up to someone in a grocery store, gas station, boutique or drug store and start a conversation without thinking the worst?  Would you dare start an unpopular conversation on a topic of ill-refute without judging the outcome of what someone may think of your opinions?

The day has arrived in your life where you are tired of simply existing and going through the motions.  You are ready, willing and able to really “LIVE.” It requires being daring enough to accept the pleasure of your own state of existence. Yes I said self-indulgent ‘ordinary’ pleasure.  The KIND you like.   You are not to seek validation or approval. Yu will do only those things that matter to you for no other reason except you want to.  If it feels good, do it.  If it feels real good, repeat it often. Cease trying to be reasonable, logical and most of all, acceptable.  IF you will, but be your ‘natural and convenient’ self, you need not worry with these trivial matters. Only those who are living a false superficial bombastic life are concerned with how they appear. The greatest joy and freedom you will ever experience is in the hour you liberate yourself from the binding ‘set of stupid obligations’ you have imposed. Do Only what makes you happy. {Thrills you to the gills} Why on earth would you do anything else?

Speak whatever words come to you without filtering. Eliminate pretense. Dress without thought of the other. Style your hair how you feel THAT day, if you care to. Laugh loud, hard and often. Sing.  Write songs. Write stories. Dance. Develop a play. Paint. Draw. Sculpt. Build something. Read. Join an unpopular cause. Choose the opposite of what you normally eat. Quit the job you despise. Do work that inspires you! Take your shoes off. Walk barefoot. Have plenty of erotically soul fulfilling deeply arousing pleasure loaded satisfying sex! Be “ORDINARY”!!! Embrace and enjoy the sensational expereince of being human; it’s what we’re here on Earth to do.