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I have always wondered how people live their lives and most times I ask myself, ‘Who will benefit from the life I am living?’ Most people live as if there is nothing at stake, some others for self. Some live as if they have second chance, while some live without any intention of leaving a legacy for posterity or to impart on their generation. We live in an age where life is no more valued. In our age we hardly remember that we have a stake in one another.

We are in a generation that focuses on self. This has made many to lose faith in this generation. Do people actually know that they have a duty to impart on their generation? What legacy will you leave behind you when you die? It is not just enough to live for yourself. You may have acquired all in life but what does that mean to your generation? Who has benefited from your existence here on earth?

We live for one another. It was Peter Marshall who said that “The measure of live is not in its duration but in its donation” and Henry Wordsworth Longfellow in his opinion said that “Lives of great men all reminds us that we can our lives sublime and departing leave behind us, footprints in the sands of time”. This implies that we should live our lives for the good of humanity and thereby leaving a legacy that posterity will make references to in future.

You cannot do this when you are not maximizing your talent to live a fulfilled life. Note that “There can be no greater argument to a man of his own power than to find himself able, not only to accomplish his own desires, but also to assist other men in theirs and this is that conception wherein consists charity” according to Hobbes. This is the true meaning of life. Life is only meaningful when it is lived for the good of others. You can never get the full meaning of life when you are self centered.

Many today many have lost hope in the life they are living. They have resorted to accepting live the way it directs them. They no longer see good things coming their way. They feel all is lost and they cannot become something again in life. That is a very wrong way of living. With such idea, you cannot live the life you ever dreamed of. Believe in yourself and you will turn more of yourself into practical use. Do not give up on yourself even when every other person has given up on you. It is only when you have this at the back of your mind that you can start living positively. Know that the best gift you can give to yourself is to have positive attitude to life despite circumstances you may be going through. This is the way to live a more fulfilling life.

WALKING AROUND OLD CEMETARIES

Have you ever walked around old cemeteries, taken the time to read the epitaphs on the stones?  Have you ever given thought to those folks buried there and what their lives may have been like; that dash between the date of birth and the date of death.  Walking around old cemeteries can be an intriguing experience.  There is a lot of history in a cemetery and some of it is about you personally.

I know folks who are very uncomfortable, even scared when it comes to walking in a cemetery, visiting a graveyard.  They think it is morbid and maybe a little on the side if insane to go walking around old cemeteries.  On the contrary, I find it fascinating.  There is a lot you can learn from those old grave markers and a lot to wonder about.  Those were real, living souls who lived their lives and walked this earth in another time and place and they each have their own story to tell.  It is because of them that we are here for without them we would not be.  We owe them a debt of respect no matter what they may have done or their life may have been.  Walking around old cemeteries is like taking a step back in time.  There is nothing there to fear aside from your own vivid imagination. 

I’ve heard the stories, read the books, seen the movies about the ghost in the cemeteries.  I’ve heard tell that on dark nights when the moon is little more than a sliver of light in the night sky that the spirits of the dead rise up and walk among the graves and when the moon is full or nearly so they may wander to those places they once knew to retrace their life once more.  It’s just ghost stories.  There is no truth in it and should you ever see an aberration of some sort; it is not dead men walking or out to haunt you or harm you or bring you messages from the grave. 

That is not to say there are not ghost but it is not your grandmother or some distant kin or lost love or even your beloved pet dog, though what you are seeing may very well be from the spirit realm which does exist and some spirits do play trickery on the hearts and minds; it is more likely a figment of your imagination, an imaginary vision or the sensation of being watched that has a very reasonable explanation.  I am not going to say you didn’t see anything or that the sensation of being watched, followed, even touched is unreal.  It could be very real but it is not anyone buried in a grave in any cemetery.  Sometimes we dwell so much on what we think we saw that in our mind we make it a reality.  You really have nothing to fear in a cemetery.

I have family that is buried in these old cemeteries that have been there left to rest in peace for hundreds of years, Native American ancestors that were here before America was, folks that came here with the Pilgrims and a few years later with the Puritans before there even was a United States of America.  I am kin to immigrants from Scotland, Ireland, England, France, Italy and from Sweden and Denmark.  These people are part of who I am and I want to know about them. 

I’ll only find a handful that are mentioned in the annals of history aside from maybe a footnote.  Most of my ancestors were just common folk.  Their history was written in old diaries, personal journals, letters to family and friends and in their Bibles.  Few ever made it to be famous, a few made it into the infamous category but right or wrong they were all real, real people living real lives for better or worse.  They each have their own personal story to tell, stories we can learn from.  They were born and somehow made it through that dash between birth and death, however long or short it may have been and then they died. 

We all are born, we live for a time and we die.  It is how it is supposed to be.  I want to know about that dash and it is in walking around old cemeteries and reading the epitaphs on the gravestones that I can find my clues to what may have been.  The legends, the lore, the factual annals of history, historical documents, military records, birth, death, marriage, divorce, land deeds and census records as well as my imagination have to fill in the blank, that dash between birth and death that we all must make.  I want to know about the dash because it is the dash that brought me here and has impacted who I am. 

Walking around an old cemetery gives you a connection with the past and in learning about the past it can shine a light into the future.  There is something peacefully compelling about walking among those gravestones.  It helps you to look a little deeper into your own self and consider the meaning of your own dash and what that legacy it will leave for those that follow you.  Life is a dash between birth and death and I sometimes wonder what my epitaph will read.

As I walked the quiet paths between the stones with no other sound aside from my footsteps crunching on fallen leaves, the whispers of a gentle breeze and the occasional chirp of a bird, I wonder, wonder about these folks who came before me and are so much a part of me and the history of my Country.

Walking around old cemeteries seems to conjure up all kinds of fears and foreboding images for many; maybe they have read too many ghost tales or maybe they don’t believe the truth of life and death and what God has taught us about it.

I don’t find cemeteries at all foreboding.  Those old stones and the people now resting in peace beneath them have marvelous tales to tell and those stories brought us to today.  Walking around old cemeteries can be fascinating. 

“Be the Change you wish to see in the world”  

Mahatma Gandhi

I have watched as countless Americans sit back and voice their outrage over the Nations economic recession, or dire need for healthcare reform but I have yet to find anyone who had the courage to try and make a change.  Our parents sat back while their youth passed away, and in their old age they sit there frustrated, bitter and scorn towards the government for taking our Nation the route that it did.  Mahatma Gandhi may be one of the most influential men to ever impact a nation like he had done in India.  Through non-violence, Gandhi was able to liberate an entire nation from the oppressive rule of Great Britain.  Egypt had just undergone one of the greatest and most elaborate overthrows the world has ever seen, a revolution that all started from a program as simple as Facebook.  These precedents placed before us prove that it is possible to achieve reformation and change through the most unlikely of avenues.  All it takes is the ambition and willingness to usher it in!

When I am old and my children are thinking about having children of their own, I do not want to sit back and voice idle remarks about how things need to change when I have done nothing to change it!  I would rather go down with lessons learned from trying then to ponder on what ifs of not trying at all.  Gandhi said it correct, we must be the change we wish to see in the world.  We cannot rely on other people to take action when we clearly see a need for action to be taken.  Imagine what would have happened if Gandhi had never acted upon the need of a voice and leader to rebel against Britain, there is no guarantee that India would have turned out the way it has today.  I refuse to be a senior citizen that sits and complains of social security, and the poor economic situation that my generation has left my children and grandchildren in.  

With college tuition spiking at seemingly an all time high, and the job market and economic stimulus at an all time low, we are left with a recipe for calamity.  We as Americans not only face grave danger but as an entire Generation we are confronted with a serious threat!  For the continuity of our legacy and lively hood hangs somewhere between the plausible realities of both a great depression and a bright vibrant future full of potential!  A pendulum that reserves the right at any given moment to sway in either direction.  Is the legacy we wish to leave for our children and grandchildren one of depression, poverty and hunger?  Because I refuse to leave a legacy of such turmoil for my descendants, therefore arising the need for reform, a deviation from our current system of running things.  

“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result.”

Albert Einstein

Our law makers, politicians and Americans are foolish if they believe that change is able to come about by merely doing nothing.  It is the same perpetual cycle with no deviation from routine.  Every four years we watch Presidential hopefuls travel and tour the country promising change and reformation, while they are mere demagogues seeking only to further their own career.  They are charismatic leaders who manipulate the emotions of their people to gain power.  And when they have gained enough influence and public approval they take office, but unlike their campaign which took them all over the country their term in office is shrouded with cloaks and daggers which seem to create the illusion of an Immortal President.  A President that is no longer in touch and on the same playing field as every other American.  Being President is a job that by no stretch of the imagination could I understand the pressure and responsibility involved.  But the quandary does not lay blame with the President as much as it does the system in which he dwells in.  Because if the President of the United States is our hand picked leader, chosen not only to defend our freedoms but represent us when we are unable to do so ourselves, then who will listen and care for us when he is too busy to do just that?  Who will voice the concerns and cares of the people to congress and senate when the President is unable to do if for us?

What many people fail to realize is that the true strength and power of the United States Government is not the Air Force, nor the Army but its citizens.  What is the responsibility and role of a power or leader with no one to govern or lead?  Our founding fathers have left us with a democracy, not a monarch nor dictatorship.  But what our democracy has come to in this current time is a mere shell of its true nature.  I believe that in order to ever expect anything to change we must first understand it is our right to have a say in government and our future!  Not a mere show of a mandatory satisfaction of the law, or as many call it a presidential election.  Because we must be involved in the progression and evolution of our Nation everyday of every year, not 6 months every 4 years.  And we must participate in our own reformation process not 1 day in November every four years but everyday!  We must WRITE for our Voice; it is our God given Write to Reform!  And may every word written or spoken move not only mountains but statues and monuments for the cause of expansion, progression and change for a brighter tomorrow!

Luke Durbin was 19 years old when he went missing on a night out in Ipswich in 2006, by all accounts he had everything going for him, yet as he tried to make is way home in the early hours of the 12th of May, it seems he just disappeared into the night. It’s been almost 6 years since Luke vanished, but mother Nicki remains firmly involved in the search, an inspiration to many who may have just given up.

There are few stations on the route I take to work that do not have the Find Luke poster on them, while Luke himself may be elusive, the campaign to find him is far from so.

If you live in the south east of England, please look at this image of Luke, and follow through to the website www.findluke.com to see if you can help the investigation in any way.

Each year hundreds of people go missing in the UK (as no doubt with any other country), for a good 50% of those cases there is resolution, and often fairly quick resolution. Cases like Luke’s however go unanswered, which as a parent myself makes for harrowing reading.

When cases go on as long as Luke’s the parents more than anything else want answers, from an outsiders perspective Luke’s final night out in Ipswich (unless anyone know’s differently) was a fairly typical night out, meeting with friends, a few drinks, and finally as is so often the case ending in that fairly lonely trip home. Of course Luke never made it home.

For Nicki Durbin you can understand why she must still have faith, the recent fateful case of Gemma McCluskie, shows that on the whole people who disappear and meet with foul pay often turn up sooner rather than later. We also hear of cases where for unexplained reasons people have some form of mental breakdown, almost or for whatever reason they have amnesia.

When someone disappears through choice, they often forget the pain of those that are left behind, the heartache, the fears, the fact that every phone call or knock at the door that is not expected can literally make their heart stop.  To hear absolutely nothing means that someone’s life will forever be on tenterhooks. All that person needs is answers, and for someone just to have the answers no matter how tragic means that their life can truly move on.

If you know of a missing person, or are a missing person do something positive today, make contact with someone and make sure that another (or others) lives are not held permanently in the balance. Good or bad, let someone know and spare them a lifetime of despair.

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Cigarettes burn, women bleed,

What are we trying to save?

Development is only one of the many ways to live. It is probably the hunger to find meaning in what is otherwise a pretty empty existence. We fight to live only for the fear of death. This is foolish, if you ask me.

I saw him hoping against hope

An old man of borrowed breaths

But his life is only as real,

As of the ones who filled his time,

All already sentenced to death

So we spend millions of pounds and half our time on extravagant scientific projects trying to figure out just why we exist. Philosophers and religious men have their own screwed up opinions. I don’t know what the truth is and I don’t judge, but all I see around me are distractions.

I saw his hand-built make-believe home

With enough to keep us all occupied

So we’re busy living, so we don’t analyze

The reason for reason, so we don’t ask

At least till the old man dies

Our existence is only temporary and we know it. And so we start screwing with it. We create a world where the mere purpose of our lives becomes moving forward. And we start building, for we know that when moving forward will no longer be an option, we will need something to look back upon.

And we get all messed up between living and analyzing.

Sitting atop his own world, he counts the rolling tears

And what he’s built and what will remain,

And what he’s taken to his grave

For all he wants is to have mattered

He lost his watch long ago, and he didn’t even notice

Cigarettes burn, women bleed, what are we trying to save?

F. Scott Fitzgerald grew up in Minnesota, as Nick did, and they both attended an Ivy League school. These two men along with Gatsby served in the military during World War One. After the war they all fell in love with three beautiful women.

Cover of The Great Gatsby

Fitzgerald then moved to a house next to a huge mansion on Long Island, New York. The owner of the mansion, an alleged bootlegger, even called Fitzgerald “old sport” which resembles Gatsby’s behavior. Close to Fitzgerald’s neighborhood was the Corona dump, which resembles the Valley of Ashes.

            Both being born in Minnesota, Fitzgerald shows his mid-western roots and values through Nick. They both believe in loyalty, friendship, and perseverance. Throughout the novel, Nick proves to be an honest hard-worker. For example, Gatsby offers Nick an illegal business to make big money, but he refuses (pp. 82-83).

            Jay Gatsby also resembles F. Scott in certain ways. Gatsby fell madly in love with Daisy, driving him to obtain great wealth in order to win her love. Fitzgerald also fell in love with a beautiful girl, whose name was Zelda.

Zelda was said to be one of the most gorgeous girls around. Fitzgerald was going to marry her, but Zelda broke off the engagement because of worries about being unable to live her flapper lifestyle on Fitzgerald’s current paycheck. It was this woman that drove him to write This Side of Paradise, to obtain the wealth that her lifestyle demanded.

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 After F. Scott acquired his wealth, he became a reckless partier. Gatsby wasn’t a heavy drinker like Fitzgerald, but he did host many parties to attract Daisy (pg 39-41). Both Zelda and Daisy were overwhelmed by the amount of love that Fitzgerald and Gatsby showed for them. These two men sacrificed everything for their women, even friends. They both had few friends because they were so preoccupied with winning Daisy and Zelda’s love.

            Fitzgerald’s life ended in similar fashion to Gatsby’s. His funeral was attended by very few people. The famous writer and poet Dorothy Parker supposedly called him “the poor son-of-a-bitch” at the funeral, the same quote Owl-eyes stated at Gatsby’s funeral (pg 175). Fitzgerald died thinking that he was a failure, but seventy years later, most high schools and even some college courses require that one of his novels are read and analyzed.

            The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald is essentially an autobiography. Nick Carraway and Jay Gatsby are used to reflect Fitzgerald’s past experiences and beliefs.

 F. Scott Fitzgerald’s legacy lives on through The Great Gatsby.

The American Dream we know today is that of commercialism that feeds into a capitalist monster. Our “ American Dream” really has nothing to do with the dreams of our own heart as a nation. We are dumbed down by subliminal messaging, false concepts and beliefs about how we are to look, feel and live in order to be happy. Our American Dream is a superficial illusion of make believe fed to us through advertisements, the media and the superstars that we dub idols and heroes.

This illusion of super hypes and new age technology are really nothing but props to distract us from true freedom, and who really wants to face truth when they can stay in their comfort zones, curled up in their Hannah Montana blankets, drinking their Coca Cola while they watch the latest episode of the Hills. True freedom has a price to pay and fear of stepping away from every falsehood we’ve been taught, and cannot forget ,because it tempts us every day in every direction, keeps us locked into a never ending cycle of submission to the powers that be.

True freedom is a spirit and heart that is unlocked and unwavering. The delusion that has taken the face of the American Dream has taken away from humanities true pursuit, and that is of love. Love for others and an honorable self love. America promotes greed, envy, distastefulness and distractions. We need to stand up and honor a day in which nothing mattered but the pursuit of truth. Its time to reclaim our freedom of choice. It is a choice to live a life of integrity and honor. It is a choice to let fear and misguided perceptions foster guilt that stunts our growth and our ability to truly live, love and prosper. Every single thing we encounter in one day, one moment, in one single second, is another choice to make. I choose to live. I choose to love. How do you want to be remembered? Our legacies effect those that come after us and every generation to follow. Do you choose to leave curses to those who follow or do you choose to leave truth?

My dream has nothing to do with what the latest fad is or what my culture says will make me happy and
fulfilled. My dream is that of integrity, honor, love and truth. I’m sure that was what the revolutionists were fighting for too. They didn’t have Escalades and Prada hand bags back then. They had a vision and they fought for it. Our countries citizens need to remember what’s important, shut off the television and notice the beauty of the world around them. Simplicity is what we are lacking, a simple faith and courage to find out what our dreams truly are.

                Legacy practices among universities have been around for many generations. In some cases a students will be tremendously under qualified, and have a relative or two which are alumni of the university at hand; these students may be admitted into the school despite the under qualification. For the most part the universities that partake in legacy admission preferences are those which are very competitive and elite. A prime example of this is the Bush family; in 1964 George W. Bush applied to Yale, at the time he had a “C” average from high school, along with a 566 SAT verbal score. However George W. Bush was admitted, this was most likely due to the fact that the Bush family had two previous generations at Yale University (Dekoven).  The positive sides of the issue focuses on the most common reason legacy students are admitted; this would be the fact that alumni give donations to the universities, and this is especially encouraged as more family members are entered into the school.  In 2001 alumni gave $7billion or 28% of all donations to colleges, and universities (Thomas and Shepard); this amount of money is a huge contributor to the programs at these elite universities. In order for these elite universities to maintain their elite status, they are in a continuous development of new academic programs.

                The history behind legacy admissions is rather ugly, as its basis is based on race, ethnicity, and gender. However in my opinion the history behind legacy admissions is unrelated to the current use of legacy admissions. In the early 1900’s all alumni children were admitted, who could demonstrate at least the minimum ability. In the 1920’s there were a greater amount of Jewish students being admitted into the universities; legacy students were being admitted more frequently in order to limit the amount of Jewish students.  During the civil rights movement universities favored minorities, and females over the average student, however at this time there was still a greater amount of legacy students than these other students. However this history is irrelevant to the current issue because legacy students are now admitted as a mean of obtaining money for funding, rather than a racist effort to minimize a certain group of people (Howell and Turner).

                The argument against legacy admissions is a very simple, but hard hitting idealism. When most people see that Notre Dame’s freshman class is 23% legacy students (Curse of Nepotism), they are appalled, and the reaction is that the process is not fair. This is the main argument, it just isn’t fair. This argument tends to be very effective among people outside of the university staff, and obviously the legacy community. The argument tends to suggest that admissions processes should be completely fair and objective. By the non supporters of legacy students, many believe that education should be an equal advantage opportunity. However as Schulman points out in May the Best Man or Woman Win that equal does not specifically mean fair.

                In order for universities to function and remain competitive they need money. This is the main premise behind those who support the admission of legacy students.  In 2001 alumni provided $7billion to universities and colleges (Thomas and Shepard); this amount is very significant to the universities. With the money, the universities directly invest the money back into the students and the university, this fact is often over looked by those who oppose legacy admissions. Thomas and Shepard argue that legacy admissions are in fact defensible because the process isn’t fair, and that it cannot be fair; however to serve as a benefit to most students legacy students need to be admitted, if they are qualified.

                The issue that I am examining is not if the act of admitting legacy students, but rather that the specific practices of each university should be kept private.

                As Thomas and Shepard describe in Legacy Admissions are defensible because the process can’t be ‘fair’, the admissions process is not fair and this is evident to all despite legacy admissions or not.  This why I believe that universities should be able to keep their policies private if they so choose. If a university is giving minorities preference of whites, is this fair? The answer is no, this is just as much as a problem as legacy students. Either one of these instances should be kept private because it would demonstrate pure racism or elitism. If we had universities admitting that they were elites or racist, they would be breaking the law every admissions cycle. So are they breaking the law? Again the answer is no, by admitting more minorities, athletes, and legacy students the university is inviting more funding and support (Megalli).

                Ivy league universities are private institutions, as are most of the elite universities which participate in legacy admissions; the word “private” is key, a public university is forced to release their financial records to the public, on the other hand private universities are not required to do so in the traditional means. So if a private university is private, shouldn’t that mean they can keep their records private? In this instance, I believe the answer is yes, private universities should be entitled to their private status, just as a private business is entitled to privacy, or as a person is entitled to privacy. 

                The most important reason to keep universities privacy is because the university is striving for high standards, and satisfied students. In order to uphold these high standards, a university may have to cut a corner to achieve the end result which pleases the majority of people.  The real issue is whether or not the means justify the end result.  And as we can see these universities are very successful, and maintain a high level of competition. I believe that if universities records were to be publicized, the universities and its students would suffer (Preserve Right to Shape Community).

                The argument that supports public access to the records and policies of universities main premise is the idea that the education process should be fair. If the education process was fair minorities, athletes and legacies would not get any preference; if in fact the admissions process was fair, it would be very reasonable to give public access of policies and records. This is the case in California, and in fact they do give public records (Dekoven).

                However it has been shown that the admissions process in major competitive universities is almost impossible due to the fewer spots in a university that qualified applicants. What are the universities supposed to judge on if they have more qualified applicants than space; obviously it makes sense to give preference to those who contributed to the 28% income of money. The simple fact that universities cannot be fair disproves the opposing argument; if the opposing argument is disproved, then the universities are forced to keep private records in order to not break the law and upset those who were not admitted because while they fit the requirements, they were not athletes, minorities, or legacies.

                After reading several articles on the issue of legacy students, we can come to a conclusion on how their policies and records should be kept. In DeKoven article Time to Bury the Legacy argues that if the admissions process were to be completely fair, universities would be able to release their policies and their records concerning admissions. However as Thomas and Shepard point out in Legacy Admissions are defensible because the process can’t be ‘fair,’ points out, the admissions process is not fair, and in a competitive university it is impossible to achieve fairness; in order to be fair every student who is qualified must be admitted, however there is not enough space for all of these students, so they have to be picked on factors such as legacy, athletics, and race or ethnicity. As a result universities have to keep their records private in order to protect the students and the school. As we can see Universities should be able to keep their admissions policies and records private.

DeKoven, Rober. “Time to Bury the Legacy.” San Diego Union Tribune 23 Feb. 2003.

Howell, Cameron, and Sarah E. Turner. “The History of Legacy Admissions.” Reseach in Higher Education June (2004).

Megalli, Mark. “So Your Dad Went to Harvard.” Journal of Blacks in Higher Education Spring (1995).

“Preserve Universities’ Right ti Shape Student Community.” USA Today 26 Jan. 2004.

Schulman, Miriam. “May the best man or woman win.” Markkula Center for Applied Ethics (1996).

“The curse of Nepotism.” The Economist 10 Jan. 2008.

Thomas, Debra, and Terry Shepard. “Legacy Admissions are defensible because the process can’t be ‘fair’” The Chronicle of Higher Education 14 Mar. 2003.

Well this person’s name is John Bird!  Still doesn’t ring any bells?  Well what if I were to tell you that he is the founder of Big Issue, the magazine you’ve probably seen been sold by homeless people outside shops and on busy high streets.  Now while you may feel that the Big Issue is simply a capitalist venture which exploits the poor, let me now tell you that nothing is further from the truth.  Instead, it is designed to give homeless people a chance to make some money for themselves and teaches them all about saving bit money so that they can further buy their next bundle of magazines (and make subsequent profit).  I have even researched further and found that according to many who been homeless; Big Issue enabled them to gain the money to rent out a small room to live in, taking them off the streets.

So despite what many people may say, Big Issue has actually improved (and saved) a vast number of people’s lives, effectively turning would-be down and outs into productive citizens of the community.  Yet what is not known about the founder of Big Issue, John Bird, is that he himself didn’t come from privileged background.  He quite openly admits that as a child and young adult, he grew up in poor parts of East London, turning to crime, etc.  He spent large amount of his younger years going in and out of juvenile centres and subsequently, prisons.

Yet by the same philosophy which he brings to Big Issue, he subsequently turned his life around and has become a thriving philanthropist.  Part of his philosophy which I have found to be a great advantage in my life is the idea of taking small steps to success (or 3% rule as he refers to it).  If you would like to find out more about how intentionally taking small steps can lead to success, please read my subsequent article, ‘Small Steps To Success.’

If you would like to find out more on Bird’s philosophy to success, I would recommend purchasing his personal development book ‘Change Your Life’ from Amazon or click on following link.

John Bird Book