She seems harmless right? Just your average teen kid. Yet, like many of us out here in the world, she wears a mask. Unveiled, this is what lies beneath it.

Your thoughts at the moment, “Oh wow, would a troubled looking child”. And you know what? Your right. This is the face of a murderer. At the age of 15 years old, Alyssa strangled and stabbed her 9 year old neighbor, prematurely ending her life. Despicable yes. But I hold a soft spot for her in my heart. Hold your stones ladies and gentlemen, an explanation is on it’s way.

Alyssa comes from a ravaged home. Her father was in prison for the most of her life and her mother abandoned her during her childhood. As if that wasn’t enough, she had to fight depression all through her life (probably alone for the most part). She has tried to kill herself multiple times using painkillers and razors are not stranger to this girls body. Scars and bloody tracings are carved into the memory of her body. Etched into her arm is a powerful word called “Hate”. How disgusting right? I mean, God she has issues! She could never be attuned to the way normal people you or me, right? If you agreed with those false statements, your something of a douche. If you put a mirror in front of me and peered hard enough, you could some parts of Alyssa on my face.

People like Alyssa are always tossed aside by our biased ass society. Cast aside for having different thoughts and experiences, people like her tend to turn to other methods to feel accepted. Drugs, hanging with tough crowds or even self mutilation. They feel alone, like no one understands the daily smothering of hurt they have to go through. They feel trapped in deep dark hole with no way to get out. Minutes feel like hours, hours feel like days and days turn to years. The will to live is extinguished by dark clouds that hover above almost daily. Without those “methods” we mentioned earlier or a really good friend, something bad usually tends to happen. Those of us that our lucky enough to get help, usually get the help we don’t need. Medicine is prescribed and things look hopeful, right? ERRRR, wrong. America seems to think that medicine is the cure all for mentally ill people. Hell, for anything really. But it’s not and in this case I’d go as far to say it helped Alyssa to make her decision to kill. People like her need love. Love is a damn good cure but no ones willing to show any to the people who need it the most. Our social ladder feeds attention/love/praise to the prettiest or the “coolest” people on the ladder, and others like Alyssa are shunned to the bottom where they rot. Believe it or not, I’ve been in a Alyssa’s shoes. But by the grace of (insert Higher Power you worship) I found the courage and power to flush away my “medicine” and to be a stronger person. If you went back in time and told me who I’d become in the future, I would have scoffed at you and turned away. I’m one of the lucky ones who got saved. I couldn’t have pulled myself out of that dark pit without the help of my friends and family though. Alyssa’s been charged with murder and the justice systems probably just going to lock her up til she croaks. Yes, she committed a crime and must receive her due punishment…but someones got to see this for what it is. She needs help beyond punishment…and she damn well isn’t going to find any in prison. I can only hope people will read this and change their ways and maybe another Alyssa can be pulled away from his or her destructive path.I’m not writing about this story to try and get sympathy for what I’ve gone through, but to make people aware of people like this. For they are human just like you are me. Never forget that, they are human.

“Judge me for who I was, I care not. For I am stronger now than I could have ever imagined. I will continue to grow even more powerful, while I use this strength to uplift my brothers and sisters around me. This slave will become a king.”

Today, the style for purses seems like the bigger than better. But there can be problems with this new style. A woman has a huge purse and then they’ll put more things in it which can cause your neck to be painful according to Baylor Medical Center doctors. Ladies, I mean those who have purses that carry everything but the kitchen sink in it, it’s time to clean your purse and make sure it weighs no more than 3 pounds.

Phones can cause neck cramps because you have to bend your neck against the phone. For a regular landline get one of those headsets they sell. For a cell phone use something you don’t have to actually hold the phone.

Roll your shoulders slowly back at least five time when you are stressed out. The reason to do this is because when we are stressed our neck and shoulder muscles get tense.

If you spend a lot of time on a computer, every half hour take a 5 minute break. The people who tcake breaks are 21% less likely to have pain in the neck and shoulders as opposed to those who didn’t take a break.

Growing up hurts and everyone who has reached adultness knows that. When we go from being children to being adults we go through a lot of different processes with which we start knowing the world and many of its cruel realities. Maybe it is what Holden Caulfield, a 16-year old guy, protagonist in the Novel the Catcher in the Rye, found out, and that´s the reason for his fears to the adult world.

Adolescence is a critical stage of our life because it is a stage of transition in which our vision of the world starts changing and in which more disappointment and deception we encounter. When we are children we don’t have to face the problems that as adults and adolescents we have to face. Economical, sexual, and other affairs are just not ours, at that age nothing has importance, just living in a bubble of innocence where nothing has an explanation, and we don’t demand it. However, as we grow up we realize that the world is not so simple and learning can be really frustrating.

To start, as you get older you start having a clear difference between what is good and what is bad, usually because we are the target of evilness. It is definitely one of the first blows. We realize that not everybody is good, that people can really hurt and many times they do it on purpose, they mean hurt one, and one receives damages from whom you expect it the least. One realizes that not everybody is truthful, loyal, and worthy of confidence.

Something one realizes that abound is hypocrisy, personal and social hypocrisy, a situation that Caulfield usually criticizes. In several occasions we find how in society double moral reigns. Related to personal hypocrisy, it could happen that those who we think are our best friends are in fact our worst enemies, and to encounter oneself with this truth is bitter enough. In the social, we see ourselves compelled to act in ways we don’t want just for taking into account social rules with which most of time we don’t agree: another bitter reality that we have to face.

On the other hand, when we are adults there are aspects of life that we hadn’t to face when we where children, and now they become part of our lives such as the sexual and economical factors. These become essential part of our lives.

Related to the economical aspect, as we grow we realize how important is money and the created need we have of it. It is the moment we need it to study, to be on fashion in order to fit into society; we need to spend on clothes, since now we should take care of our physical appearance as we never did. We need money too for going out with our partners, and so on.

Upon talking about the sexual aspect we have to talk about his two main components, the physical and the psychological. During adolescence we get across with that new aspect of our lives, which we have to learn to deal with. Sexuality is a topic about which Caulfield was really interested. When we deal with sexuality we have to deal with the social rules that control it besides the religious beliefs that society implants within us: what is allowed to do, what no, what is sinful, and so on. Many young people can face serious problems in specific matters such as homosexuality, gender roles, etc.

Other problems one can also face are those related to falling in love. Here you have to deal with issues such as being corresponded or not, competence to gain the favor of the person we are in love, and after we get the relationship how to deal with it. In addition to face issues like unfaithfulness, to be in love with the wrong person, all of these are painful and necessary affairs to deal with.

Another big problem for many is the fact of fitting in a society where we don’t feel we belong under rules we don’t accept. We see in the novel that it is the main conflict Caulfield presents and which causes most of his sufferings. He dislikes everything around him what provokes him feelings of frustration and loneliness. One of the most painful results of this is the rejection of others and discrimination toward those who are and think different.

  Added to all those situations, all of our problems gain new meaning and new dimensions when we grow up. Death is one of them. At the age of 16 Caulfield has already faced two situations related to death that one can realize affected him deeply. The first one is the death of his brother Allie, and the second the death of his schoolmate James Castle who committed suicide when was being bothered by other schoolmates. In this second situation Caulfield not only sees how painful death is, yet how big can be other’s cruelty. When facing his conflicts he looks for his ex teacher Antolini to help him, for he remembered the compassionate way he acted when James killed himself.

Because of the way he sees the world and his attitude toward others, Caulfield experiments strong feelings of loneliness and despair. In fact, he looks for fitting in the society and looks incessantly for company; however, he is unable to deal with people, according to him because their superficial, or because they are bore and annoying.

As we see, the pain of growing up is the pain that really affects Holden; he has to try to make himself a way in a world where he feels he doesn’t belong. He fears the world’s evilness that’s why he would like to continue being a child and take hold of children’s innocence. He worships this innocence and he would like to protect it, hence the name of the novel, The Cather in the Rye, for he wants to save children from the cliff there is in the rye, being these symbols of innocence and the risk to lose it. Nevertheless we can see in his behavior a complete immaturity, an immaturity that will cause him a lot of problems, since he doesn’t want to face life the way it is. Caulfield was afraid of growing up, he wanted things never changed. And it is true, it could be normal to be afraid of growing up because in fact growing up hurts; nevertheless, it is normal, unavoidable and necessary.

Ryan Keith Johnson

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Progressive Concept; Make The People Want  An  Evolution Not a Revolution.

            It is true that in the past leading up to now that politicians have worked hard to motivate the public by telling them to give up their guns. They also like to say that America needs to get into foreign affairs and that the people should be passive about regulations that are passed.

            Now with the Patriot Act that has been passed, the Federal Government can continue monitoring and with Obama signing the Defense Act Bill you can be sure that your rights are being infringed. These bills break the Fourth and Fifth Amendment of being safe and free in your home and having a trial with a jury. What this means is that the Federal Government can consider anyone a Terrorist. They can break into your home, hand cuff you and take you away to a location where no one can find you. You hear about interrogations being done in Egypt and that the citizens of Egypt are taken from their homes and basically disappear.

What The Federal Government Wants

            The people that are in our Federal Government want to break the country in pieces.  They want to destroy families and destroy communities so that things get so bad that the people cry out for help. When the people cry out for help then the Federal Government will declare Martial Law. Martial Law is an act where the country becomes a police state. People will have a cure few that will lock down the community into their homes. It will be like Nazi Germany when Hitler took control of the country.  The constitution  will be suspended and nobody will have any freedom, you’ll have total tyranny.

            The Federal Government want control over what you do, where you work, how your children are raised, how you should spend your money and where you can travel.

            They’ve already got control over where you can work with the credit score. People think that employers use the credit score to decide who to hire. The credit score is irrelevant when applying for a job, but yet you’re asked to sign a waiver giving them permission to look up your credit score.  It’s discrimination and against the Fourth Amendment. Employers aren’t even suppose to be photo copying your Driver’s License  because of the increase in identity thefts. Think about it you don’t know your employer and you shouldn’t be giving that information out. America is the only country in the world that has the Credit Score.

            The Federal Government wants control over the Education of what your child is taught. Jimmy Carter passed the Department of Education with Congress to take responsibility for your child’s education. The idea is to have a system in place to teach the children a small portion of America’s history.  They want your children to become followers, dependent on government and have no understanding for consequences for their actions. They want to dumb down your child by making it difficult for teachers to do their job. Think about the No Child Left Behind Act passed by President Bush, it didn’t help the children or the teachers.

            There have been other anomalies that can’t be proved the Federal Government is behind it, but the Federal Government isn’t doing their job to protect the public. There are food additives and high levels of toxins in health products; like shampoos, hair sprays, make up, lips stick.  These Toxins can cause degeneration of the brain and make it hard for your child to learn in school. The Federal Government knows that they can’t make you get your vaccine shots. These vaccines are loaded with Mercury that cause ADHD, ADD, Learning Disabilities, Behavioral Problems and Autism.  Vaccines are scams and the Federal Government is behind this scam to make you believe if you don’t get a flu vaccine that you’ll die. Mammograms are scams as well, they cause cancer.

What Can We Do?

            We can do a lot! We need to stand up and say no to big government and socialism. We need to preserve a Republic for the individual American Citizen. We need to work together by sharing what we know to other uninformed Americans. Get organized and talk to your neighbors. We can’t depend on the Fox 9 news or CNN or any News to cover the biggest SCAM that’s going on in our government.

            There is already a growing movement in the United States. Militias are forming; there’s one in Virginia and Michigan. Protests are being done in Washington DC with the direction this country is going the people in power don’t know what to think. We need to stop fighting among ourselves over petty things, our freedom is at stake. If we don’t have our constitution and our freedom then we’re allowing more government control that will lead to something worse, world governance.

Our so-known as “gateway” drug normally referred to as “Pot, Smoke, Hash, etc…” is one of the most important causes our jails across the nation are filling up, and that apparently makes you depressed, suicidal, even angry and psychotic, is now getting utilized for quite a few medicinal purpose’s that really function with little to much less side effects then any contemporary day prescription.

Positive aspects of Marijuana:

•PAIN RELIEF: have a bad back ache, arthritis’s, or even serious migraines? Marijuana is proven to relieve body aches and muscle cramps, even cut down pressure and can make fighting chemotherapy simpler
•CURES NAUSEA: Ever get a bad case of stomach flu, or are you tortured by IBS? Marijuana is proven to relieve indigestion and/or stomach upset
•PRESCRIPTION ILL SIDE Effect RELIEF: Marijuana is proven to support folks taking medications that trigger serious ill side effects such as “Methotrexate.”.
•RELIEF FOR folks WITH “MS”: Research are showing that folks suffering with “MS” can benefit from the illegal Marijuana
•INSOMNIA: Marijuana is proven to support folks suffering from sleep deprivation to lastly catch a night’s sleep, Threat, “dependency may perhaps create.”
And this list goes on and on and on, and in all actuality if you can consider of a serious discomfort that is bothering you consistently and you continue to reach for the aspirin and ruin you esophagus consider of Marijuana, you know you don’t have to smoke it if you’re worried about lung cancer? There are a lot of recipes for each and every meal you can consider of and trust me Marijuana is a a lot improved discomfort reliever then your ibuprofen.

I know your thinking, “so what if it has can benefit me or relieve my discomfort, it’s nevertheless ILLEGAL.”

Well you’re suitable in essence but may perhaps I interest you in some COLD Challenging Facts?

•The Statues (in most states), state that, “It is illegal to posses marijuana, with the intent to sell, with the intent to deliver, with the intent to, and so on and so on
•No maritime circuit court can convict you on the pretense of intent unless you had been caught in the act of the intent stated in your states statue, if they say, “ your beneath arrest for the possession of marijuana,” politely respond, “according to the states statue it is not illegal for me to posses marijuana unless I posses it with the intent of promoting or delivering it, in which this case never apply to me, and additional a lot more if you proceed to arrest me it will be beneath protest and duress…” or some thing like that

In what has to be a sign of bureaucracy finally seeing sense, the first cannabis-based medicine has been approved for use in the UK by sufferers of Multiple Sclerosis – MS. Named Sativex, this mouth spray relieves muscular problems which render the unscrewing of a bottle cap, for example, difficult.

Initially developed by UK form GW Pharmaceuticals – after sufferers illegally used the drug, which contains active ingredients called cannabinoids – extracted from the plants reared at a secret, legal, cannabis farm in the south of England.

Health Canada had approved the drug for MS users in 2005, and have now approved it as a pain-reliever for advanced cancer patients. Sativex, now produced by Bayer is composed of THC and cannabidiol – a non-psychoactive cannabinoid – both key compounds found in marijuana.

The drug is thought to influence the pain perceptions through the cannabinoid receptors distributed around the nervous system and present in immune cells of the body, activation of these  receptors known to reduce pain for the sufferers.

Cannabinoids can play important roles when it comes to treating complicated neuropathic pain, demonstrating a very positive effect as a treatment option. This revolutionary medication is catching on fast in Canada among MS sufferers, and the potential for use with treating other types of pain seems obvious.

Sativex delivers a metered dose of spray either under the tongue or inside the cheek,  concentrated to offer maximum pain relief with, unfortunately some might say, minimal usual marijuana feelings, effectively dealing with nerve pain triggered by touch, temperature or movement, often difficult to treat otherwise

Reported side-effects to date include respiratory infections, mild feelings of intoxication or dizziness, on a far smaller scale than smoking marijuana would induce. Main drawback of Sativex is the cost, those 11,500 UK patients who could be eligible needing £11 a day to pay for it.

Such a high price is liable to be possibly too expensive by the standards of the National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence – NICE -, so whether it gets prescribed will depend on the willingness of primary care trusts to foot the bill before NICE approve it, which may not happen at all. The drug has received good reviews and sounds like it might be a godsend for some, but with NHS budgets under scrutiny, it may turn out to be available only to those who can afford it, mores the pity.

I will show you fear in a handful of dust - T.S “Butch” Elliot

We are humans, mere mortals hoping for the betterness of the world, hoping that we will never ever encounter apocalypse, hoping that we will never live to see the end of the world. But all of that is one crappy fairy tale, reality check fuck-o, the world is ending, and it’s ending fast. The skies will rain with fire and incinerate everythnig that it lands upon, people will be running everywhere, set on fire, the earth will open wide and swallow cities whole, and the sea’s will rage and break down whatever civilization has worked hard upon.

Do you think that this rising temperature is normal? Will it ever cross your mind, that the ozone layer is falling apart and it will let in all of the ultra violet rays, thus turning the earth to a sea of fire. Do not live on your make-believe stories, that there will be a happy ending, because the ending is coming up, but it’s not gonna be happy. It’s gonna be chaotic.

Aren’t you afraid that all your hopes and dreams will vanish? In one sweep of a tidal wave, everything you have, everything you wanted, every inch of your humanity, washed away. In one great ball of fire, every piece of you, gets set on a fiery blaze, and you know that you can’t stop it. All kinds of pain, as the flames roast your skin, burning the eyeballs in their sockets, burning through fat and muscle, and not even your senseless screamings can stop it. A building collapses and falls over you and you just stand there and watch, in a few seconds you’ll just be a bloody mess, with all your hopes and dreams a splatter on the concrete.

Dreams? There are no dreams, there can only be nightmares, in the chaos of the apocalypse, there will be no dreams. Only survival, would you think that you are able to survive with people running frantically everywhere, not caring for the next person, only caring for themselves, not knowing that EVERYONE will die. The world is such an ironic place to live it, you try to survive for it, and when you think you can do it, BAM! you’re dead.

Isn’t that funny? Life’s a joke, but hell, I ain’t laughing!

Pisces 19.February-20.MARCH;

Element: Water
Element: Variable
Nature: Women
Planet: Neptune, Jupiter
Natural home 12 home
Password: dreamy, sensitive
International title: Fish
Animal symbol: Puma
Plant Type: Grass Nervous farewell

Lucky stones: quartz, moonstone, agate, sapphire, Coral
Lucky Number: 3 to 7
Lucky color: dark purple, indigo, green sea
Lucky Day: Thursday
Auspicious metals: lead
Luckily animals: fish, sheep and oxen
Birds auspicious: the swan and the stork
Flores luck: Lotus flower
Positive characteristics: humility, kindness, friendliness, accuracy, rapid adaptation, tesirlilik, decency, kindness, intuition.

Negative characteristics: uncertainty, negligence, privacy, easy to be dispersed, weak desires, indecision, the hard life of being able to fight against the sides and easy.

Key words: Kind, friendly, polite, not practical, shy, variable, over-emotional, impressionable, compassionate, merciful and redemptive, imaginative, intuitive, unselfish, humble and careless, distracted, sacrifice, hard to understand.
Pisces people friendly, modest, thoughtful and özverilidir. Very sensitive to the feelings of others and their needs. They can be easily influenced. Shows the response of joy and sorrow equally intense, the peaks of ecstasy mood, low in the depths of despair.Emotionally, in order to protect himself, he thinks yaralayabileceğini ilgisizmiş against persons or events behave like. Pisceans are very strong intuition.

The idealism of the realities of daily life, closing your eyes will cause great pain. And alcohol can be stored in the world of imagination. He is really in search of inner peace. This peace of music, poetry, dance, the arts can offer the dying. Structure sensitive to others and self-sacrifice their own desires to overcome the second plan, may cause a desire to be unable to move. In this case, the sacrifice. If these properties with their own wishes and feelings of other people’s feelings by making a great saving kullanabilirse required limits.
Patience is a great feature of the hand sign of openness and sensitivity of fish have the ability to persuade. Calmly, get along well with everyone. Double symbol of Pisces is a dual character.Realistic views of life, but not serious. There is a great sense of humor. Each can be easily adapted to the environment. The instability of the fish, as they are tolerant of their weaknesses and their enemies can. Güvensizlikte car feature this sign. Help ease the pain of others, compassion, prayer, or a mystical way, but do not want to face reality. Family and friends would be unhappy to think and understand. Literature and art are very strong feelings rıhsal. Not easily disciplined and do not fit the usual things. Fish smart art, while others may be an alcoholic. Other signs are very powerful forces of intuition, belief, it is likely to sign. For this reason, it is psychological. The dancer, writer, photographer, doctor, and according to them mesleklerdir cleric. People love to live at home comfortable and pleasant. Carrier definition İNANIYORUM fish worth stopping. Fish are not very happy school children. Date based on the imagination of the facts as courses outside the kuramayacakları not as lessons. They are ideal for painting classes.
Pisces Mens

The Zodiac Pisces man more emotional man. It sometimes happens, but the logic of the feelings of the inmates are also very good use. In fact, honest and well intentioned, however, for the coloring of the words also can lie sometimes. Having trouble deciding that the double-minded. Very dreamy. Sometimes you can not see the facts of the feelings in the foreground. The inner world is very colorful. Pisces man is generous, sometimes savurabilir money. Great, is a creative force. The only thing you really need for energy. It can be very successful in his case. From time to time do not know what she wants in life is the reason ilerleyememesinin. Imagine that instead of trying to establish a preference. In this case, you have good administrators. Accepts people like them. Pisces men because of a very compassionate, everyone expected of him for help. Family, relatives, friends of the mind to be consulted and find comfort in all. Meanwhile, a very good listener. The compassion of the people, while it hurts. You can stop being loved and beğenilmediğini kederlenip detected.Because your life will always admire the beauty of a good party.Once connected to love, his wife believes that the most beautiful.It’s the most beautiful and expensive to hand hovering in luxury.This trend is reflected beauty in your home. There is no more valuable than the house of a man to fish. Wants to love and be loved. When you feel strong and loved, then it is easier to overcome obstacles. Popular and more successful when there is love. If you leave quickly despair and pursues a new love. His heart is never at rest. It is not considered indecent, a romantic in love. Woman seeks love and dreams. Jealous man loves fish, but also works to keep this feeling. All life fall in love with a sensitive man.
BUSH WOMEN’S FISH
Fish beautiful women, beautiful and attractive and also lover of beauty. Want to have all the beauty. It attracts the most expensive items, like the best of everything. compassionate, merciful, gracious, kind person. Very emotional. Topics such as science and culture will remain of secondary importance to him.Depending on the family and friends of the man she loves, but above all a thinker. It gives you the confidence and provides luxury living man wants something is not another. If you are not fond of material things, he wanted the money to meet the needs of many. Taking advantage of the beauty and charm does not work on the rise. People do not want to increase their use. Item injury, does not want money, except luxury. Money, or to ensure the comfort of his wife and children. Fish thinks women are superior to women and kıskançtır others. To love and be loved, loved man and always have dreams and get married. The money does not like living with someone. Friendship is very important to him, but also their allies may lose because of jealousy. Beautiful, elegant and easy wins the admiration of society of gravity.Women have the intelligence, cunning, sweetness, charm, and there are all kinds of ownership over them. That is the family, relatives, spouse and dependent children and the home of many attempts to provide a happy environment. This is why folding home businesses, but actually the day of the good things you want to fill. Very free rein to their children, to give them everything they want.

Men need to go extinct, and women need to turn into holy Mary’s. Have children without sex, and without the heartbreak caused by men. Men are amazing when they want to be, but they are heartbreaks in the form of a human.

Apocalypse, a word meaning the end of the world. I wish I understood it more.

I miss the life of not fearing anything. Where I thought I was invincible. I understand I am not in an apocalypse. I wish I was, sometimes anyway.

I do not smoke pot (anymore). But now back in my teenage years I would have been considered quite a stoner lol. Honestly I do not see any more risk with the legalization of marijuana than with alcohol or some prescription medication. It all has it drawbacks. I can say one thing for sure though. I have seen many people suffer from alcohol poisoning or overdose on their medication unintentionally, but I have not ever one time seen someone overdose on pot in any way. 

It helps with pain, nausea, and anxiety disorders. It is no more harmful to your lungs than cigarettes are, and no more damaging to brain cells than a beer. It would bring tons of money into a struggling economy, and the population overall would be happier. 

Now I come from the South deep in the bible belt where it is still difficult for places to be able to legally sell liquor, and it still can’t be sold on Sunday. But it is also a place where a lot of people spend A LOT of money buying marijuana. 

I can only hope for a day when people realize the benefits of this stuff far outweigh the risks, and it is not as dangerous as some of the stuff already out there. So whether you are for or against it, it is one of those things where you have to not think about yourself, and think about the benefit of it for others.