Most of us work for a living and get a paycheck for the work we do.  A lot of us live from paycheck to paycheck with nothing or very little left over by the time the next paycheck arrives.  We develop a budget to try and live within our means.  It is not easy in today’s economy but most of us really try.  It takes real effort and will-power.  It takes learning how to say “No” and “Wait” and learning to make do and not be wasteful or careless with what we do have.  It means learning to set goals and really working toward those goals, one step at a time…But life is more than just a paycheck and it isn’t all about having fun. 

Life is learning to be happy and content in the moment, learning to appreciate the blessings and the gift of each new day and making the most of it, doing our best, the best way we know how.  Life is more than just things.  Life is an attitude and your attitude toward living makes all the difference in how successful and happy your life will be.  Life is more than just a paycheck.  You can’t buy happiness.  You can’t buy friendships.  You can’t buy peace of mind.  You can’t take back or undo and relive one yesterday and you cannot buy one single moment of any hoped for tomorrow.  All you really have is today and the sufficiency thereof.  Make the best of it.

Whining, being angry, being jealous and envious of others isn’t going to gain you one thing.  All it is going to do is make you miserable.  Feeling sorry for yourself because someone else seems to have more and a better life than you do isn’t going to get you a better life.  (Believe me when I tell you that the grass is not always greener on your neighbor’s side of the fence.  Things are not always what they appear to be.)  We each have to be accountable and responsible for our own life and how we live it.  The world does not owe you a living.  You have to get out there and make life happen one step and one day at a time.  You can’t steal happiness or force anyone to give you happiness.  Happiness is something you develop for yourself. 

That “Gotta have it now” syndrome and trying to buy happiness on plastic is only going to put you deeper in debt.  Eventually you are going to have to pay the bill.  Plastic is good for an emergency but you should never charge anything that you cannot pay off in full in 30 days unless it is an absolute necessity.  You need to know the difference between necessity and want.  That takes learning to say “No” and “Wait” and planning ahead for those “want” items.  It is necessary to have food, shelter and clothing, to have your medical needs met and to have a means to get to and from work to earn that paycheck so you can have these things and work toward those “want” goals.

It is wonderful to plan ahead and to have all those dreams and goals.  It is those dreams and goals that keep us going and make us willing to get out of bed in the morning and try again, keep moving forward and that paycheck is a necessity but life is more than just a paycheck.

Of course we can’t live without some sort of income in today’s society and it is always a good thing to try to improve upon the situation we are living in.  You always feel better about whom you are and what you do have when you have earned it, done your best to provide for yourself and your own well-being, for your family and those lives you are responsible for; but life is more than just a paycheck and it isn’t always about having a good time that cost you your paycheck at the expense of the necessities in life.

Of course there are situations at times that happen that are beyond our control.  Sometimes bad things happen or we make mistakes, make a wrong choice in life and we have to face and deal with the consequences.  We can’t change it.  It has already happened but we can say I’m sorry, pick up the pieces and do better today, make the effort.  We all face discouragement from time to time but you still have to get out of bed and live your life.  Life is about acting not just reacting. 

We aren’t always going to like the situation we find our self in.  We aren’t going to always like the situation going on around us and sometimes life hurts but just because things aren’t going the way we hoped and dreamed doesn’t mean we give up and it doesn’t mean you follow the herd that may very well be heading in the wrong direction just because everyone else seems to be.  Things aren’t always what they seem.  Learn to use a little discernment and think things through before you act.

It is nice to be able to go places you dream about, have those luxuries in life that advertisers say you need, do things you want to do, drive the fancy car, own your own dream home, have the perfect and ideal job with a chunky check; all that is nice but it comes at a price, and not one of those things will buy you real happiness or a good life. 

Happiness is something you make for yourself by learning to be thankful for the sufficiency of today and being willing to strive toward your next goal.  Life is more than just a paycheck and good times.  Life is an attitude.  Make it a good one.  Do your best to make the very best of each new day.  Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is just something we hope for but today is what we’ve got.  Give today your best and be thankful you are here to enjoy it.  Don’t let disappointments or someone else’s dream be your stumbling block.  Today is yours.  It is a gift.  That is why it is called the present.  Live in the now and hope for tomorrow. 

Maybe I don’t have all I want today, but I do have all I need and by doing my best with what I have today I am working toward an even brighter tomorrow.  Life is more than a paycheck and a good time and happiness, the real joys in life cannot be bought.

Not to brag but even if we dont have anything to put on the table we can still survive even before the recession came. Poverty is not rare in my country. Most likely for those who grew up in this kind of situation or environment we are forced to come up with different possible means to survive each and everyday of our lives. Some would resort to different legal and illegal means. While some would just give up and expects miracles to happen which is not good.

Although we now are part of the working force are wages are not enough to suffice all of our needs and wants. But that is better than nothing.

So what is it that keeps us from fighting everyday? It is the so called hope that one day all is well,literally. That is why for some of us we work so hard to the point of exhaustion. Some would take two seperate jobs while managing their family and kudos to them.

You know it is really hard and when you accept the fact that it is that hard and have done something about it and keeping the hope alive. Then someday everything will fall into place and you can achieve the dream you have hoped and longed for.

If you have failed in hoping then stoped at everything then you’re at a loss. I just pray that someone would talk to their senses that life is like that. We should never lose hope as life is full of trials and surprises.

Having hope in everything we do pushes as to be more responsible of our actions and it lets us aim on what we really want in life. With hope and determination life would be at its best.

He is convinced Ken to help them out of the hospital. Mr. Emerson and Mr. Hill agreed that the psychiatrist from another hospital receives a new meaning, as Mr. Harrison is said to be able to make a sensible decision. Then, two lawyers, one of Ken and one for the hospital, and a judge is required to consider all the facts and determine whether Mr. Harrison is in a state of clear mind. Ken is heard by the judge and try to convince them that it is in a large mental health. After Ken’s proven to be mentally balanced, the judge decided Mr Mill House that Ken is allowed to be discharged. After losing the trial, Dr. Ken Emerson still want to die with humanity. This means that he wants to die surrounded by doctors who can take care of the time of death at least will not be painful and proposes to take a room at the hospital. Key issues: Euthanasia: the rhetorical question in the title, saying “if life is it anyway?”Brian Clark said the main theme of the book from the very beginning. Euthanasia is a very serious problem in this book. Mr. Harrison would not live longer. This desire has offered several times, but people around you do not want to die, because they believe that their mental state is not clear. Throughout the book we learn that he is in a large mental health, so I think he has the right to decide to die or not. In my opinion people have the right to make decisions about their bodies, including decisions about when and how to die. Dignity Mr. Harrison has stated repeatedly that he wants to die with dignity. Two

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A person should strive to improve himself to effectively deal with the situation around him. Some people would say that imitating other people is not a good way to assert one’s individuality. This statement is only partially correct because a person can improve himself by emulating the good deeds and character of others. Indeed, one person can be a good source of inspiration to another person.  Moreover, some people are averse to compare themselves with others. But some constructive comparison can be good for them.  By comparing themselves with other people especially the high achievers they can set a measure for their life’s achievement.      

We have our own strengths, weaknesses and limitations. We must remember always that we are all unique individuals. Although it is good idea to follow other people’s example, we should also remember that we can hardly replicate other people’s achievement because of our uniqueness as individuals. We cannot shine walking in anyone else’s shadow. We can prosper by developing our own style to make things happen in a way that suits our personality.      

We should focus on the things that we have rather than on those that we don’t have.  If we look around us there are some unfortunate people that can’t even have the small things that we own. On the other hand there are people who have things that we cannot afford to buy. There are always people who are greater or smaller than we are. The food on the table, our income and our family are blessings from God that we can’t take for granted. We should be grateful for all of them.               

If we have too much of a thing we seem to eventually get tired of it rather than enjoy it. For example, if we go to a place with breathtaking sights. At first we are delighted on what we see. But as days go by it seems that our surroundings are just ordinary sight, and we want to get back to where we came from.     

We certainly need money, and we can’t get by without it.  And it would be hypocritical to say in this day and age that we can be happy without it. We need money to buy the things we need and to support our family.  But we don’t have to be filthy rich to be happy. Even things of a very small value that we enjoy make us happy.

What we need in this world to satisfy our needs is moderation. We need only moderate amount of food, exercise and water to be healthy. Too much of anything is harmful to our body.  We should also distinguish our needs from our wants. Our needs should be our priority, and we can do without having our wants. We should never go to excess but let moderation be our guide to a happy and healthy life.                                                                                                                                                                           

There are times that our effort is not enough to get what we desire because of our limitations. The bottom line is that we should treat things that we have both big and small as our blessings. “Count your blessings” is a cliché, but the saying is valid for all time. By doing it, we can always be satisfied and happy persons.

The first thing a man who wants a woman to share intimacy with needs to keep in mind is their personality deficiencies.  It is okay to be timid and shy.  However, a person should not be made nonfunctional in the presence of a woman.  In addition it is okay to look at a woman with sexual interest.

Notice, I did not write that it was okay to look at a woman with only sexual interest. In our society the message to young people to abstain from sex till marriage translates in to sex is always bad.  This is partially why many married people cannot relate to their spouse sexually.  

In addition, I am not advocating a liberated sexual life experience.  Pleasure from sex does feel good.  However, a life absent of a vision of purpose and future leads to many getting to their end realizing they left a lot undone.

This is why we all need a mature meditation about sex’s purpose in the human life. In its basic form, sex is just for procreation.  In its more complex form it is the intricate elements that lead to physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual fulfillment.

However, before a person can start he must get in to good mental shape.  This requires a personal investigation of flaws and foibles and a proactive plan of action.  Think about it you could be having sex with a hot babe right now instead of reading this boring article.

Now once you have mastered your personal issues you can start planning your attack.  I advise people to have a picture of the physical type that most appeals to them.  For me this would be Monica Belluci.

Then, once you have an idea of your female ideal, you can determine what personality traits you are searching for.  On the back of the picture you have write down what you want from a woman.  I like a woman who is beautiful, playful, jokesters, and conversationalist, not at war with the world, with a healthy sexual appetite, who will tell me, instead of throwing annoyed looks, and who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with her.

Now, the possibility exist that you will find yourself in the presence of a person who is not your physical ideal and with personality traits that do not meet your expectation but you find yourself attracted to anyway.  This is okay.  Everything begins with the physical drive to have intimacy needs met.  We are built with a physical brain that realizes hormones and endorphins that are the reason we start to want to have contact with someone from the opposite gender.

From the physical, comes the emotional and the mental.  Having some in our lives can make us happy and give us pleasure.  Not having someone can cause pain.

In addition, many of us think that we can think our way to a good relationship.  It is necessary to feel, think, and sense.  We look at some one and we find and attraction.  Then we begin to care and need that person.  Then we sense pleasure from conversation, seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling, and of course touching.

Okay, so you are man with no skills.  You are in a room full of babes who meet your physical ideal type and personality ideal type.  How do you convince one of them to date, fall in love with you, marry you, and let you touch her sexually?

The manner a man walks and looks around a room says a lot about that man’s psychological nature. It says the man is confident, in control, and in charge.  This is attractive to women.

In addition, women have their ideas about who meets their ideal physical type and ideal mental type.  A woman may be looking at you just because she believes you are a kind person and she could have a friendship with you.

However, a man does need to become perceptive about when a woman is looking at him with a romantic interest.  At this time the man has to make the first move.

As much as people are anti-flirting I am pro-flirting.  At the first meeting, it helps to be comical and whimsical.   It will relax the man and the woman. 

Once both genders are relaxed the superficial conversation can start.  At this time common, general and noncontroversial life issues can be discussed.  In this discussion both people learn about the others opinions on dating, marriage, and sex without having to go through the uncomfortable events of asking directly.

Let us review.  A person fixes his or her issues.  A person mediates on his or her physical and mental ideal type and puts in a physical record like a picture and a written outline.  Then a person goes to where the highest probability of encountering his or her ideal type exist and begins to, make contact, talk, flirt, and find out about the person with general noncontroversial questions.

Okay, then comes the first date inquiry.  The man is the one who should make the attempt at asking the woman out.  Now, the possibility exists that you can leave the event or place you are in for a meal and more specific conversation.  Another possibility is that the first date may have to be at a later calendar date.  The man has to sense which option is more plausible.

Yes, I know that in today’s world people are having sex five minutes after they meet someone.  However, ask people if they are happy with their life and a lot of the truthful answers will surprise you.  It comes from a lack of vision of purpose and vision of the future.

Moreover, this article is for those male types who just cannot connect with a woman.  You may be a know-it-all-need-no-body type.  However, many of us are willing to admit we need help and accept help.

Now, early I wrote a certain sequence of events.  These were dating, marriage, and then sex. What to do during dating?

Well for one, you are enjoying each other’s company and growing closer to each other.  This means you have to be in each other’s lives.  Who needs a romantic partner who is always, studying, working, or at their mothers? Time and involvement is required.

Now, you have managed to keep this woman around so long that she manipulated you into marrying her.  Here comes the honeymoon.

Women need sex as much as men, if not more.  A man has to sense when his wife is in the mood for sex and give her the sex she wants and desires.  Now you can drag your wife to your computer, open Microsoft Word, and ask a lot of annoying questions in order to find out what kind of sex your wife likes.  The alternative is to listen and see how she responds to your hugs, kisses, and caresses.

This is a great admonition to you quiet lovers.  A lot of sexual fuel comes from being vocal. 

Of course there is going to have to be a mature and in depth conversation about what kind of sexual activities appeal to your spouse.  I only appreciate healthy sexual lifestyle that only involves the husband and the wife and does not abuse or degrade either person.

So, you have to know when your wife has an itch she wants scratched.  You have to compliment and sweet talk.  You have to hug, kiss, and caress in a sensual manner.  You take an interest in her sexual fulfillment.

Yes, I know many men are asking themselves how they are supposed to know when their wife is itching to be scratched. When a woman is aloof, distant, and peculiar she is wondering why you are not paying her sexual attention.  She has an itch.  Scratch it.

The problem in our society is that people have tried to change the rules.  Instead of waiting until you know someone well enough to want to dedicate your life to them, modern people jump into bed at the first meeting.  Another bigger problem is that too many people have the romantic ideal, but lack the real ideal about what makes a marriage work.

However, when a person grows up and realizes what marriage is about then they have to maintain a certain level of sexual interaction with their spouse.  When a man wants to get his wife in the mood he just has to pay her romantic attention.

Most women respond to compliments, hugs, kisses caresses, and other physical stimulation.  In order, to understand what a woman likes during sex a man just has to listen and watch her responses.

This is important because in order for a wife to continue to want to make love to her husband she has to believe her expectations will be met.  This means she wants to reach ecstasy in a way that it leaves her completely satisfied. Knowing that her husband will satisfy her completely will make a wife more willing to be seduced every time.

SHOCKING, I know, not really. But, true nonetheless. The more you try to be opposite of your parents, the more you find yourself like them. Don’t you just hate when someone says, “you’re acting just like your father/mother.” Doesn’t it just cut you in the gut? But, the truth is you are acting like them. And, most of the times, how they went out things is completely opposite of how you wish to go about things. Okay, it works for them, and it completely does not work for you on a real level. Yet, you find yourself doing the same behavior over and over and over again. Even though, each night you tell yourself, I’m not going to do this because it’s not good for me. The very next day, you awake and find yourself repeating everything you just told yourself you were not going to do.

If you think about it like this, you had six long years of watching this habit; six long years of perfecting this habit; and, six long years of being rewarded by laughter and approval from your caretakers from. Then, out of the blue, you are decided those habits are not healthy for your new way of life. It took you six years to perfect the habit, and you are expecting it to just go away overnight, interesting. No habit forms or goes away without having been worked at. It’s going to take a conscious awareness of the negative thoughts and ways in which your subconscious is programed to continue this particular habit. Only then will you see a change and a the reward from making the change occur.   

As always, if you’ve missed previous lessons, or just want to brush up, then you may want to go back and repeat them:

Hindi Lesson 2: Introducing Yourself

Hindi Lesson 3: Talking Nationality

In this lesson, I will teach you a way to always get what you want, but first, a magic word:

कृपया kripayaa/kri-pi-yaa – Please

Kripiyaa, the Hindi word for please, is not heard particularly often in everyday life, only in very formal settings. Now, if you want something, when travelling in India, how do you go about getting it?

यह दीजिये yeh deejiye/yeh dee-ji-yay – Give this to me please?

If you want anything, you can point or holding up a an object and can ask this simple sentence. Deejiye is a respectful imperative formulation, it implies politeness so don’t need to use kripayaa. Now to add a little variety, instead of asking for “this” we could ask for “that”

वह दीजिये vah deejiye/vah dee-ji-yay – Give that to me please?

Since nothing in life comes free, maybe before explicitly asking for something, you should ask for a price?

यह कितने का है yeh kitne kaa hai/yeh kit-nay kaa hai – How much is it/this?

This sentence structure should now be becoming quite familiar to you now. The sentence ends with the verb for “is” and begins with the subject, yeh ”this.” “This” is followed by kitne “how many” with the added possessive pronoun post-position, kaa, transforming kitne kaa into ”how much.”

I hope you’ve found this lesson helpful, and with what you’ve learnt, and a bit of money, you can obtain whatever you desire. If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to ask in a comment.

Until next-time, Namaste! 

Learn More Hindi:
Lesson 1: Greetings
Lesson 2: Introducing Yourself
Lesson 3: Talking Nationality
Lesson 5: Thank You, Goodbye and Farewell

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(4) How to Distinguish Our Wants From Our Needs – this was published at Gomestic on June 19, 2011. To date, it generated 92 views and earnings of US$ .10 cents.

(5) Charice Pempengco: The Pride of Philippines Needs Bodyguards – this was published at Quazen on May 21, 2011. To date, it generated 453 views and earnings of US$ .33 cents.

(6) Osama Bin Laden: The Greatest Actor – this was published at Socyberty on May 14, 2011. To date, it generated 284 views and earnings of US$ 5.20. This article was plagiarized by three websites without my permission. And from this article, I received the badge as Quality (May 2011) Guaranteed.

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(13) Listening an Audio While Reading Will Improve Your English Speaking Power – this was published at Bookstove on February 10, 2011. To date, it generated 115 views and earnings of US$ .10 cents.

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(18) How Many Days You Take Off Work During The Year 2010 – this was published at Scienceray on December 27, 2010. To date, it generated 83 views and earnings US$ .13 cents.

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He said Girl I am the best thing that has happen to you!

And I don’t know why you don’t what me I am a good man?

You are not the man you could be and no I don’t have time to teach you.

My age is a number but my wrinkles are growing.

In the beginning you were so good to me yes that is true.

But every time I put my feet on the floor you putting your feet under the blankets.

You made love seem like it came so naturally but when the rent is due you are naturally dumb.

But now you’ve changed and it’s so plain to see saying you love me does not pay the bills.

You’re not the man that you used to be you used to be outgoing and strong.

In the midnight hour, I long for your touch but when the daylight comes there no lights, the light bill was due and you forgot to pay.

Waiting for you to come home, with one story and another why you are broke and your mother can cut us a check.

I would miss you so much but I have a secure home now that you are gone.

Now you don’t come by and I am suppose to cry.

And you call me and ask me why don’t I call you any more.

Are you giving me a dime for my time?

You asked me how did my feelings change so quickly when the landlord said the eviction notice was in the mail.

I’m not sure what you’re looking for but from me I need a man who going to bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan.

I sorry baby you are hurting Cause baby it hurts like hell to think that you don’t have a red cent for the car note.

You want to be here in my arms of course because you know where the heat is.
And in time have you found somebody better than me is what you say?

Then go on I am not stopping you.

I hope she has a rich father because you will not be the man of that house.

Cause you’re not the man you can be if you only would try to put your feet on the floor.

You’re not the man to take care of me when I am down and out and sick.

Did you ask me did I buy chicken soup and I was the one who was sick.

I know there is isman that will love me constantly.

Yes I do understand you are a man by your own words.
Sorry to say that you can’t be the man for me:
I remember the times when I was so lonely and you came home smelling like a bar.

But never, ever again now I have found in me peace see Woman has man at the end.

I think I  found a new friend who knows how to hold me he even bought home the bacon with the eggs and the bread.

Someone who understands that I’m all he needs he asked me to make the coffee and said it taste just like me.

Hot smooth and savory.

Now it feels so good to know that he wants to be here in my arms and at times he even whisper to me I am in love with you:

I got in my car the other day and I opened the sun-visor and $100 dollars fell out, I looked at the gas tank and it was filled.

Yes he is the man for me.
Too bad you could not have been that man Oh that’s right you trying to be that man for me.
You’re not the man, you’re not the man yes I said it you are not the man for me.

See he taking good care of me in the bedroom and out the bedroom he has even taken care of the yard and fixed things up in the house.

I just don’t know why things have changed oh yeah I do remember now, you asked me for five dollars and ate all the bread in the house.

But that’s alright baby, cause I found someone to love me and I love him back.

You’re not the man for me don’t worry about me more.

You’re not the man for me and yes I said it.

This guy liked a girl from his hometown as well, while we were in school, yet he told me repeatedly that he had feelings for me. He told me that he liked this girl at the first of the school year when we first became friends and also told me his plan to not have a relationship during school because he was waiting for her. Then after he told me he liked me months later, I thought she was out of the picture because he said that if he does develop feelings for someone else during the school year, she would understand!  I thought we were going to get into a relationship, but that is a whole different story and I have learned my lesson (Never let sex come before the relationship title if you’re a girl like me who doesn’t want hook-ups!).

 Anyways this guy from school doesn’t even talk to the girl he had feelings for now that he is home and she was the reason he didn’t want a relationship all throughout school. They were going to wait to be together after they both finished their education, years later. She has moved on…I saw that coming! She was the one who told him that he could do what he wanted and she’d be with and do what she wanted while he was away at school, so I knew she couldn’t have liked him very much! I could never do that if I truly liked someone. I wouldn’t think of being with anyone else at the same time, but supposedly they never considered themselves to be attached or “in a relationship”.  They both planned to just “hook up” with whoever they wanted, which sounds horrible in my opinion.

So now that they do not associate, I believe he may be interested in me because he has been talking to a lot and he tells me he misses me. We were together all the time at university and I always had a lot of fun with him, staying up all night talking. I know I probably sound like an idiot because it sounds like I could be his second choice or something, but I mean I am hoping he will realize that it wasn’t meant to be for him and her and will be completely over her by the time school rolls around. He told me he likes me many times before, he just liked her too at the time and was going home soon, so I guess now being far away from him I understand why he chose her. Obviously, his feelings for her were much stronger and she was going to be available to hang out with over the four and a half months we have off of school.

I always think, “If you really like or love someone, you can make long distance relationships work”. However, now that I am so far away from him, I understand how difficult it is because I miss him like crazy, yet it is different because I am unsure of whether or not he misses me as much. He has told me since I have gotten home that I should try with someone else and asked me if I thought that would be the best thing for me right now. He told me this because I asked him if he thinks I should move on. Maybe he is just telling me I should move on in case something happens over the summer with him and someone. Even if this is right, I want to be with someone who wants me for sure and can wait for me.  I said it wouldn’t be good for me because I don’t want to use anyone to get over him and I have told him I still have feelings for him. Lately, I just keep thinking that since he told me this, maybe eventually I will try with the guy at home. He has been talking to me a lot as well and I think he may like me more than a friend because he is asking me to hang out a lot and I can just tell because he is different now. We have been friends for a while and he acts differently.

I don’t want to waste my time waiting around to go back to school and pass up the opportunity to be with someone who may actually really be into me and want to be in a relationship. I could get back to school and this guy may not be interested in starting a relationship, but I can’t help but think that it will be different when we go back to school. We all know absence makes the heart grow fonder! I really miss him and I believe he feels the same way. We used to hang out in each other’s dorm rooms a lot and he would sleep with me. I miss him being a couple floors away. I could go see him anytime and now it is really hard! It was always so comfortable and time flew by when I was with him. He was also saying he wants to come to my house next year.

Ahh, I don’t know what to do. I was hanging out with the guy from home today and it was a lot of fun. My mom got home and he was talking up a storm with her. Haha It was nice to see a guy being so polite with my mom. My dad came in as he was leaving and he was talking to him too. I had a lot of fun talking with him today and driving around, just doing whatever. I want to have fun this summer. I don’t want my whole summer to just be revolved around my job. I want to do fun things on my days off and hanging out with him will allow me to accomplish this! I just don’t trust myself. I know I could fall for him, but I REALLY like the guy from school. I just don’t want to wait around and have it be for nothing. I’ve done this before with someone else while in high school, wasting your time on someone who will never feel the same way sucks. He used me and I am never going to let that happen again. I certainly don’t want to use someone, which is another con for a summer fling, unless he just wants a fling. I DON’T, or do I? ahh…

I know most people would just say I should keep hanging with the guy from home and see how it turns out, but I don’t know. I am so confused. I just keep thinking about how sad I will feel if I go back to school “in a relationship” because things with me and my best friend at school, who is this guy, will not be the same! I did homework with him too and it was fun because I was doing it with him! That was my least favourite class too. Haha I just miss talking all hours of the night and feeling so comfortable sleeping with him. Yet, I don’t wanna be lonely this summer.

I don’t know if I can be the type to just have a summer fling and I don’t know what this guy wants. Maybe he doesn’t even truly like me. Maybe he just wants to get some…lol BUT, he doesn’t seem like the type, never did. I guess time will tell, but I would really appreciate some advice! J