To Teach Or Not To Teach

I’ve been teaching … well, giving Math tutorials since I was in college. Majoring in mathematics has given me an edge and has provided me an extra income even when I was still pursuing my degree. I would feel great joy when I would learn that my students were able to get high ratings from their examinations. Some of them were hard to teach but it served as a challenge to me and I would try harder to make them understand and learn.

Some parents would approach and ask me to teach their kids, most especially when they are getting failing marks. Some schools send parents a Performance Rating Report and a lot of them would learn early when their kids are not passing their subjects most especially Mathematics. Some of my students though excel in class or belong to the A-list but they still want to be tutored in order to be advanced from their lessons. One of them even graduated class valedictorian.

I know that teaching is a great opportunity to impart my knowledge, mathematical and analytical skills to the learning generation. However, there comes a time when we would want to do something else. I have been giving tutorials for twelve (12) years now and it has come to a point that my passion is driving me to another direction. I still would love to teach and impart whatever knowledge I have about mathematics, analytical and logical thinking but I think it’s time for me to take a break and do something else. Writing is becoming my passion now and doing a home service tutorial would be time-consuming for me already. Maybe I’m being selfish but I’ve done my part for many years and I think it’s time that I give myself a break.

I’ve been wanting to tell the parents of my students now that I want to take a break from my teaching but every time I meet with my students, I don’t have the courage to tell them most especially when exam week is coming near. I know I will be able to find the guts but I find it my responsibility to help them and I just can’t turn my back away from them that easy. Not now that my students love the method and teaching strategy that I’m using. I know I’d be able to do it someday. But I guess I have to sacrifice a little more… maybe until the school year ends. But it’s hard to be working full time, attending meetings, writing online then giving tutorials at the same time. I’m good at time management but sometimes we just need to have time for ourselves. Most of the time, I can’t even go to the parlor to have even just a haircut, or unwind, or watch a movie. Things like these I’ve been wanting to do. I know in this world, we have to make a lot of sacrifices. I’ve taken mine. It’s hard on my part but soon, I know I’d be able to get that much needed rest and vacation that I’ve been wanting to have. Hopefully…. soon.